Melt me with ure kisses.

Yes. My birthday has passed. Happy sweet 17 to me. To all my SWEETEST FRIENDS and FAMILIES out there thanks fer the wishes. 27th June. Those readin my blog now, im soo sorry ive to cancel tis week chalet and postponed it to the 07 july due to my health condition and also, a mishap occured. i will sms u ppl soon. i promise! For work, im in a state of guilt now, i just couldnt make it tis week as my health wun permit, HORMONAL IMBALANCE hit me again. And my sincere apologies. As for ppl who have pretended to be like an angel came from up above, sorry to say tis, but ure true colours have finally shine thru the window of my eyes. So just stop pretending to ask if im ok and at the back of my neck, u wud be like "yada yada yada ya ya". _____if u get wat i min! AND PLS BITE, CHEW AND SWALLOW TIS PARAGRAPH AND PLACE IT IN YOUR IMAGINATIVE MINDS . Listen to what im gonna say. Firstly, this is mua blog and its up to me what to bitch about and whatsoever. Secondly, if u have th...

Tis is my stupid blank expression, Im down ok. really down. How can i not be down when the one i cared fer said such a thing. He said "think im dumb to tell u that.. You dunoe me yet..." For a moment, it strucked me. Pearl of tears started to drop down tis hue of mine. How could he say such a thing when we haf been thru all our ups and downs together. It takes a small thing to screw up everything. My sister, she's like no longer cumin back to singapore. Him, he hurt me so much last night. Perhaps, he didnt realise what he was saying. But if he does for a moment, Are u willing to let us go after evrything? After years of building tis bond? Or are u blind to see tat. She didnt do tat to u alone. She did the same to me. And just because we are so call "related", u gonna throw me like tat? Im glad i managed to change u to a better man last tyme, and u did change me to a better Bella. Arent u happy to see the real me? Now tat ive changed to the precious bella all o...

Finally, my bro weddiN HAS ENDED . Im happy fer bof my bro and sis in law. Im praying the best fer the both of them. I feel contented coz i was there to help my bro and be by his side. Im gonna miss runnin into him and huggin him and pinching his tummy and call hym RUDEE SPARROW. cos he could actually imitate captain jack sparrow aka my love. kwang kwang. SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU!! MOGA BERKEKALAN KE AKHIR HAYAT. Love u all. Best wishes ; BELLA JAMES

Rei Noroimusha.. The name Rei itself hurts me. Its so painful to argue over things which wasnt my fault at all. ever. Apiesh fought with me tis afternoon. I didnt expect our conversation to turn into big form of arguments. Perhaps, as wad my frens and cousins said, it was just ns tat pressured hym and guess wad, i was god damn bz with my brother's weddin, feeling all intoxicated and omg, my feelings changed. I became all sad and down and not forgetting, CONFUSED. He told me he's not the apiesh i knew, and therefore, i told hym tat im not gonna be the Bella he used to know. He can change, so do i. Am i not wrong to say tis? Urgh. 1 week to my birthday and tis is wad happened. To deserve tis from someone i shared every smile and teardrops with. The 1st person i go to when im happy, the 1st person to go to when im down and confused. And to get tis in return is definitely out of my deepest delusions. Pls tell me it didnt happen, tell me tat it was all fable. Gosh. He's gonna br...

Enough means enough ok. Tats the picture of my new haircut, Its till my shoulder length. and i got myself a babydoll shoulder length haircut. Thanks to my beloved Pamela S who spent whole mornin doin my hair. I actually had blonde strips and pink hi lites on my hair. and seriously, it turns red when captured in camera. urgh! Enarf of my hair talk. My motive bloggin tonight, is to actually wish my brother and my kak Najihah, "SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU" Abg, i feel honoured to be your best gerl, just now. I gave the ring and i was at my bro's side. Im like so happy fer hym. He's been waiting fer tis to arrive. and it did! Kak Najihah look splendid today. Pretty in White, holding pink roses, she looked just like a PRINCESS. Compliments fer her. Me and kak laiha was so busy since 11 pm- 6 am.9 am-12.23am. Baking cakes ferabg dee's wed. and i helped out carrying trays and foods from uncle man's restaurant, Restu. It was humid and it was werth my effort. Cos at th...

Again, there's something new abt me. I had a haircut and i coloured my hair. I love the outcome. Thanks to My pamela S. We slept at 6.30 in the mornin. Just imagine 7 hours of cut, colour and hi lites. hehs. I got my pink chunks!!! Extensions, goodbye! lol.. Great, i've been so busy lately. And i just cant wait to meet all the people i miss. My pamela S look so happy. Cuzie, i bet u miss SOB tat much!! and dearest cuzie, i miss my fish so much. and u miss ure SOB.. urgh, guys guys guys. hehs.. Lotsa love, Bella James

Here goes another day. A joyous yet exhausting day. Went to work early in the afternoon and headed to my bro's house. Well well, Today was the grand opening and shop was a chaos. Customers was all over the place. I could actually see how excited they were to build a bear. Janice and Roger (BIG BOSSES) came down to the store. Not forgettin Hui Xiang. Roger kept on emphasizing on how much he missed me as the FIRST IMPRESSION. I was the mascot today with Pilar. Wad do u expect? Im tall. haha. It was so exhausting. I was plunged in sweat. Haha. Tomorrow, im returning to my role as the First Impression. Janice was so happy. Adeline our new manager, was a fun loving person. I cant stop laughing whenever she's around. U should have seen her do the " HAPPY FEET TAP DANCE ". superCUTE!! Haha. Again, lots of new faces and i get along well with them. FUN ok! Joyce came down with her fren and bunny. haha. Thanks fer the chocolate yea?! Anderson, dun beat my bear head ok! Haha A...

Im INTOXICATED ! No words can describe how i feel. Haha. Ok, i lied. The term intoxicate explains evrthg! I've understood everything now. THANKS2 TO MY ABG RUDEE, ABG DINO, ABG AYIE AND KAK NAJIHAH . LOve u all, cousins. Haha. Stupidity ; tat explains why i cant understand signals. haha. Nah kiddin. I was too bz with my own life to just see tat opportunity ahead me. Now tat i realise, im gonna GRAB IT! Im not at home. Slept over at abg dino's house. 2mrw, he's flyin off to Brunei to serve ns. * SOBS!! ABANG.. ADEQ RINDU SANGAT NI NANTI! MAKE SURE COME HOME BY MY BIRTHDAY! He bought me a pink adidas bag for a present! thanks thanks!! Abg rudee is gettin married next week. Of all my frens. APIESH IS INVITED . Look , i dunnoe why all my cousins seem to favour him a lot. INCLUDING MAMA AND DADDY okeh! Waliao. haha. Lat two days, had a great day out with fauzi, went and watch pirates of the caribbean. hello hello. my boyfren ; JOHNNY DEPP act ok! haha. Must give hym the su...