Melt me with ure kisses.

Rei Noroimusha.. The name Rei itself hurts me. Its so painful to argue over things which wasnt my fault at all. ever. Apiesh fought with me tis afternoon. I didnt expect our conversation to turn into big form of arguments. Perhaps, as wad my frens and cousins said, it was just ns tat pressured hym and guess wad, i was god damn bz with my brother's weddin, feeling all intoxicated and omg, my feelings changed. I became all sad and down and not forgetting, CONFUSED.

He told me he's not the apiesh i knew, and therefore, i told hym tat im not gonna be the Bella he used to know. He can change, so do i. Am i not wrong to say tis? Urgh. 1 week to my birthday and tis is wad happened. To deserve tis from someone i shared every smile and teardrops with. The 1st person i go to when im happy, the 1st person to go to when im down and confused. And to get tis in return is definitely out of my deepest delusions. Pls tell me it didnt happen, tell me tat it was all fable. Gosh.

He's gonna break the promises we vowed , rite Hafiz? Are u for real?

Kla, shall i return to my past where Poison Princess was my nick? Should i get back to the shit i was? Or should i just wait for hym to cool down and talk things out. Again, he promised to call, and i get nothing. Not even a simple sms sayin he cant call. He's out with frens btw. Wada fcuk. Why do i care so much?? Why? I shouldnt. Let just keep tis ego goin. So, hafiz, WILL U DENY ME WHEN WE MEET AGAIN?

Apiesh, im so sorry, i just cant take it. it wasnt my fault. pls tell me u didnt mean it. Im not prepared fer another heartbreak. IT HURTS.

FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 2 YEARS, u made me CRY tis bad. I miss u so much. Umbrella by rihanna is fer u.

With wishes and hopes,

BELLA JAMES

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