Melt me with ure kisses.

You never know how STRONG you are until being strong is the only choice U have. Being away for quite sometime, doesnt mean i dun care. Doesn't mean I've moved on. Upon hearing what I've heard is enough to keep me broken. I realize, when a downfall happen to me, it will keep on happening, either the same day or the same week. Havinq my sister in hospital, crushes me enough. Now, ive to face another challenge which I think is way too personal for me to elaborate. See, the fact that I do care, makes me weak. And my heart is breaking again. I believe U would be readinq my blog cos that is what u have been doing everytime when im in school. U know, I really believe its tyme for U to sit down and think of all the shyts U have caused. Yes, i believe, U still wanna have fun, but tell me w.o denying, how are u feeling now? Yes, U appear to be happy and havinq fun, but in the baq of your mind? deep in your heart? I knoe, this is not what U wanted. Remember the things U told m

Ignore the captions on mua picture. Ok fyne. Im dead worried. I might not show it out, but inside, my heart is thumping fast! Im so worried about kakak now. Doctors have been asking on our family history. If ever, anyone have had cancer before. Unfortunately, mama answered yes. I cudnt think much now. such a great downfall. I knoe my haters would be laughing upon hearing my sad news. I hope the results will turn oud positive. I believe, kakak is strong and I dun want anything critical to happen to my sister. We may fight ALOT but still, i do care for that sister of myne. I love her alot and i mean it, alot. I will be heading to the hospital again tomorrow. Please pray everything go smoothly for me. Tho I might not show it, I need the greatest support. Im off with hopes and wishes upon the starr. LOVE, Bella.

I've been busy with my family this few days. I've come to realise friends come and go. Some friends stick to U for money and fame, Some friends stick to U for leisure and fun, Some friends stick to U during their dark and empty moments. But true friends give u advices and leads U to the right path. YOUR BESTFRIEND CAN BE YOUR WORST ENEMY, SO BE CAREFUL. I have yet to choose my friends. And I thank those who have been with me true my thick and thin. I may be egoistic, but I do have my soft spot.serious..taq tpu! hehehes. Ok, im seriously bored. no school for a month! im counting days till school starts again! Its gonna be diploma term 1. 1 more term to go. Just hope i pass my exams and get to the next level which is ; DEGREE. As u can see, there will be no clubs for me. so mates, dun bother to ask me out for 'fun'. I cant be bothered. I would rather do something that is worthwhile. dun wanna regret at a later stage. FANATIC? ZAMAN BILER MAU FANA2?? Playboy? Pla

Lately, ive been occupying my tyme with my loved ones, family. My sister is warded. She might havta go surgery to remove her cyst. Haesh.. The other tyme, u had accident and now, ure suffering again. Not to worry, i believe in your strong willpower. As a sister, I pray for your recovery and all the best to U. See U tomorrow. LOve u sister.

Music Playlist at MixPod.com Where are those happy days, they seem so hard to find? I tried to reach for U, But U have closed your mind. Whatever happened to Our love? I wish I understood. It used to be so nice. It used to be so good. U seem so farr away though ure standing near. U made me feel alive but something died I fear. I really tried to make it out. I wish I understood. What happened to our love? It used to be so good. So when you're near me darlinq, cant u hear me sos? The love u gave me, nothinq else can save me, sos. When you're gone, how can I even try to go on. When you're gone though, I try, how can I carry on?

It was Fun.. Went to Max's chalet last night. Most of my classmates attended. Mostly the guys plus cheryl. OUTSIDERS, Yani, ____(lupe name la), eve, and anth guy. We joked the night through and I ordered Mcdonalds. My phone sucks last nyte. and i went over to have manicures done. got a new red tank top. and and. I FINALLY GOT A PHONE TODAY!!!!! Thanks to akai's bro (apit) who helped me bargain fer the price. jeng jeng jeng. Im so happy. Its a pink china phone!! WISH CAME TRUE. lol! I've never felt this happy before, serious no joke ok! haha. Im havinq fun. Thursday, Ive got a date with rabia, out ; JOB HUNTING. Its hard to contaq me nowadaes, ok fine, im busy ok. Im blacklisting! (ade laaaa). Lately, ive been dreaming of a new career and a new prospect. I need to pamper myself. Spa, anyone? Oh, btw, to my classmates(those attended chalet), LETS NOT FORGET FRIDAY NIGHT! K, im thirsty. gonna drink my blueberry tea now. Taqaire. have a gd nite. love you.loveyou.loveyou.

I am soo gonna fail my Econs. 99.9% Of the class was damn pissed with the paper. Shucks. it wass super hard, can? kns! Term 1, I passed both my Marketing & Communications. Term 2 results is gonna be out in 2mths tyme. Modules : Advertising & Promotional Management Media Studies Basic Economics. The first two modules are heaven fer me, not econs! Besides, what does econs gotta do with Mass Communications? *dangs! Had high feverr since friday. Body felt weak and I felt dehydrated. Imagine waking up early in the morning just to GULP, yes, gulp! not sip! Went over to IMM to get Max's chalet stuffs. I was ok until 7pm. Maq Ucu (akai's aunt) invited me over to have dinner at her place. I agreed and promise her i'll be there with apit (akai's elder bro). While waiting, I suddenly felt weak, I could hardly feel my legs. I dun even have the perfect vision. All I could see is black circles and black starrs! I could hardly hear a thing. I could onli hear parts of m

tired of those chapters! darn! tmrs basic economic. i shall die. lol! LOVE. Bella

Sorry for everything. Sorry for the mistakes U commit. Sorry for the mistakes ive made. I am sorry. A bad influence, u say? I'll prove U right. Push the blame on me, its my fault. Beautiful liar, u claimed? I'll prove U right. It was my fault for having a bitchy mouth. I am at fault. U can put the blame on me, its alrite. This is a lil too much but its ok. Im hurt. Let me bleed. My innocence proves nothing. So, i havta admit, im to be blamed. forgive me. THERE IS JUST SO MUCH FOR ME TO TELL YOU__but let me keep it as my secret. you wun listen. ps ; i love u a lot. im willing to take the blame and let u have a better life.

What a tiring day. Im appreciating those surrounding me. Thanks for trusting me and seeing the real me. Thanks a lot. Ive got nothing much to update. Im just soo sick of ppl making use of me. and i apologize I couldnt be that PERFECT GIRL. Like, I AM NOT BARBIE. I am me. Been singing the whole day. Been singing Distant Memories. and I just cnt stop singing. I miss dancing. I miss singing. I miss everything. I miss the stage. PARTY, ANYONE?

Cheyy. Bella dar realli move on nampak? hhahaha. alaa, chill ar ENJOY. tmr is my exams. and wish me luck ok! and yes, IM GOING KARAOKE TOMORROW . SATURDAY NIGHT, ZOUK la sehhy! AND Im so enjoyin life. Think im sufferin? Think i'll wait? Think i'll care? HELL NO. MY USED TO BES : CRY OVER YOU WORRIED WHEN URE NOT AROUND SHELTER U ADHERE TO YOUR WANTS AND NEEDS BE A GOOD GIRL, STAY HOME TELL U EVRY SINGLE THING TRUST PPL SURROUNDING ME STICK TO YOU NOW : LAUGH COZ URE STUPID. CRYING NO MORE ENJOYING LIFE NOT TRUSTING PPL SURROUNDING ME LAUGHING AT YOU WHO WILL TELL HYM YOU ARE READING MY BLOG! GO AND UPDATE HYM, GO.. SHOOOO (taq sebut name k? jdi, jgn smbrg hemboz. ) GEREQ jugaq jady center of attention nie kan? Hahaha. Im never NOT MENTIONED. Good, say all the darnest things about me, my frens, those who really knoe me, is laughing coz ni semue kental! MEREPEK sia. zaman fanatic da over. please eh? Im so free to do whatever i want. Boy, your wish has finally came true. Celebrate

You won't leave a single tagg. You won't even tell me Ure reading my blogg. So, enjoy what im gonna post. I MIGHT BE SOFT inside. But as time passes, I tend to change. Lets not care bout my memories. Lets care bout the soon to bes. and im gonna shine. really shine. as i say, enough!ENOUGH! ENOUGH of my nights alone. ENOUGH of my tears crying. ENOUGH of all the stories. ENOUGH of all the dramas. ENOUGH of all the shit. I'VE MOVED ON. and.. i knoe, u will definitely pretend U dun knoe my blog link. enjoy reading cos i'll be happy to continue updating. YOU just dun have a life, do u? NOT MENTIONING NAMES ok. If u dun understand, let me translate, TAQ SEBUT NAMER eh! so, dun act smart . cos that makes u more stupid. Im not holding on. Im not hanging on. Karma happens. AFTER WHAT HAPPENED, im stronger. and sweetie, U might gonna EAT BACK YOUR OWN WORDS AND your OWN DRAMA. cos the truth will outshine the lies. GOODBYE. (ps TAK SEBUT NAME. SO PLEASE EH. TAQYA NAQ A