Melt me with ure kisses.

PICTURES TAKEN ON THE 28TH OF APRIL oh, sorry for the bad image quality. It was taken from Akai's front camera. I promise a better picture soon ! ENJOY. Hate it, might as well, leave. and and pardon our masai and tired faces ! -.-'

Met bby earlier on .. Okay, its 6 am now , and it was yesterday when i met bby. Baby bought a new phone, LG viewty. and he seriously need to buy me one on hys next pay? kay kay kay kay?? hehehe. My phone is spoilt but its okay, i gave in since bby's phone is a total jahanam. Kene campak. Why? Its between you and me kan? jatuh longkang laaaa. hehehe.. Made baby promise not to keep in contact and flirt with chiqas. I hate it everytime he does dat. INSECURITIES. Afterwhich, met Eve and Max somewhere not far away from my crib. Akai treated us pool and it was a hell lots of fun. Akai bought a new phone but i was th one busy godey godeying his phone! term sungguh the bella language! lol . pictures will be uploaded as soon as bby bluetooth-ed th images to my beloved pink laptop. Now, my dearest is on hys way to work while i cant put myself to lala land. Sungguh stress di rumah okay? And daddy is starting to cut my expenses and make me control my budget cos something BIG is happening in

A picture says a thousand words. But like th picture above, my life is just way opposite. Ppl just love watching th way i live. And i hate th fact that its their entertainment. Some bitches admit they wanna be like me or get near me . But seriously, you won't be loving the life i am leading . The house doesnt feel a home animore. Its as though, im living life thru hell. I am glad akai have been there. Make me laugh when i cry. Make me believe, nothing is wrong . Now, he is out of my crib .. I am already crying drastically on how much i want hys embrace. Its okay, 3 more hours till i see hym again. For now, th truth have become lies. and the lies became the truth. I'm confused and im just waiting for my name to be cleared. Urgh . fuck...

Pictures above was taken yesterday . Baby had a half day off work , afterwhich, met me at bukit gombak for as early as 9.40 am. We had some family gathering going on . Both our parents and us except for my daddy, that is . It was a remarkable day, and we had an early lunch. I swear it was such a humid day . Irritating, i know . Baby and i have been drinking lots of water nowadays, we have been neglecting fooooooood ! Good kay akai, i can lose weight, if not he will always ajak me go makan and make me eat. blearghs ! Okay, im off now. Be meeting akai's aunt and buying some groceries. Getting akai his cereals, milk, and kunyah2 which will be shared by Miss Bella James. Ahah. See ya people !

Pardon my muke taq perlu . Haha, Met eve earlier on . Afterwhich, met max and my akai . Glad, things have been smooth. Tho' I must learn how to control my bitchy mouth . I was sarcastic. But it was unintentional. Things have been good. Its hard to contaq hym now cos his hp is spoilt . and i hvta wait for his call every now and then. Urgh. Guess now, i gotta get th dice rolling, lets just play th same games . I'll play th "i dunoe anything" kinda bbygirl okay. I'll be more flexible. gaaaah ! Love you much.

VIRGO AKAI AND CANCER BELLA Cancer Woman & Virgo Man This match is very good for you and can definitely lead to lasting love. You have a lot of things in common with the Virgo boy, like your love for order and routine. Security is very important to you and you will find that in this relationship. You also have good chemistry in the romance department. You will draw out the passionate side in each other that you both keep hidden away most of the time. Because your needs are similar, you respect what each other want from a relationship. You will feel fulfilled emotionally in this pairing and fights about either one of you flirting will be few. A good love match. Can you say perfection? When Cancer girl teams up with Virgo boy, friends and family have a magnet for good times and group activities. Backyard BBQ's, movie nights, and Sunday dinners…. you're the belles of the ball. Everyone wants to be near the warmth and good vibes that you have for each other. Personalities mes

Took an emotional quiz and here it is ; You're holding on to a hurt feeling caused by past relationships and having trouble in trusting again. Its time to learn from your mistakes and move on. Get rid of the self pity that is currently controlling your love life. You might be tempted to date another mismatch, thinking wrongly, that if it can't turn into a relationship, you won't get hurt. You are too fragile now for those games. Baby , you've been extremely busy . and we have been lacking time together. I miss you so much .

Patience is a virtue. Met bby and am glad everything is settled now. Okay, here is another random post based on LIFE. Readers, imagine yourself sacrificing your everything to th one you love. Staying under one roof and have all the good times together. One fine day, you happen to read a message in his inbox saying all those sweet nothings. Afterwhich, u called th other party upon suspicion. U got to knoe th one you love have actually betrayed you . He said th nastiest things abt you when you were th one who have been w hym thru his ups and downs. What would you do? Lucky, it didnt happen to me ...

This song is super meaningful okay? damn it . lol Dimalam sepi ini, teringat kisah cinta ku Bila ku keseorangan Wajahmu menjelma Sewaktu bersamaku, kau tak menghargaiku Kini kau ku tinggalkan, Setelah ku dipermainkan.. Tapi malangnya nasib diriku, Ku taq mampu untuk melupakan mu Kini ku sendiri, menangisi, pemergianmu, kekasih hati.. Ku sering terbayang Kenangan kita bersama Engkau berjanji setia Akhirnya ku yang terluka.. Setahun darh berlalu, Ku tk dpt melupakanmu Tpi tiada ku sangka, Kini kau sudah berpunya.. Tapi ku masih sayang pada dirimu seorang dan aku akan menantimu Hanya engkau yang ku sayang.. Aiyai ! dun get me wrong okay, im still happily taken by my kakai.. I guess, if we were to break up, then , this would be dedicated to hym cos its true, guys tend to move on easily than ladies. And kakai, better not leave me cos I love you fucking much !

In school, Ive learnt that aggression is bad . Acting on impulse, saying things you dun mean to will eventually turn everything th opposite way . As for me, PMS is a bitch and I hate having to deal with PMS every single month . Last night was fucked up. I was petrified someone was stabbed at my void deck. I was upset everyone was picking on me . I was even mad when Baby misunderstood me. Its been almost 3 years now baby, and you should know how deep my fucken love is for you . Its me and my mouth . gaah ! Can someone just murder me ? I should have understood you're feeling all blue and lethargic . I should have just ignored your temper. I should have just let you cool off. I should have talk to you in a nice manner instead of scolding you in th presence of my friends. I am sorry for embarrassing you. I didn't mean to break your heart . I didn't mean to say those things to you . I didn't mean to just shout at you in that manner . Baby, I know you're reading this. Bel

Hello sunshine ! I miss updating my blogg. Sorry bloggie, ive abandoned you . lol . Okay, things been pretty smooth this few weeks. Alhamdulillah, Allah have answered my prayers . On the other hand, Im getting better . My health is much more stable and I could predict if im gonna be down for another hormonal imbalance attack . Am currently chatting w dolly n i miss her much . Akai went out to get me ciggs and get mama her nescafe . Im ubber mundane now . Guess, im gonna have an early nite tonite . Pictures cant be uploaded just yet. Kakak gue paitao sih ! aduh !

Its been awhile since I update my blogg yea? Oh, thanks feeqa! Its no longer dusty . lmao. Both 3rd and 4th April was a bomb. it was mama's birthday on th 3rd, and Eve's on the 4th. Pictures above are actually pictures taken on eve's birthday. Oh, the 1st photo is taken on mama's bdae. Ive yet to receive more pictures from bigg systa. As for now, my baby is sleeeping so soundly! Geram i geraammm. mcm naq cubit2 hys pipi you knoe.. Oh yes, he's right beside me. Im contented . chao .