Melt me with ure kisses.

Trust? Is it worth trustinq someone who haf doubts on U? Friends? Yeah, im talkinq about friendship. I just have the feelinq my own bestfriend haf doubts on me right after I found out some stuffs. Ive had enough of the separation I had with this friend. Only god knoes how much I trust and love this friend of mine. I dun wanna part. No. but it just happened. The distance isnt the matter ryte now. Ive just settled with one issue, pls dun tell me another major issue is cominq up. Im seriously stressed and pressurized with everythinq. Its hard to hold lots of responsibilities all at once. My life have changed and i knoe, ive finally found myself. I da tanaq lepaq sangat. but whatever it is, i just hope that u understand. And I just hope U be honest to me. I just dun want U to keep it from me. If there's somethinq ur uncertain abt, U cud ask me. Instead of keepinq it low. U knoe i cud stand cricticms. and darlinq, I swear, it wasnt on conference. neither was it loudspeaker. Its a pe

Indeed patience is a virtue. Not gonna mention why. But im happy. The shyts we've been thru. The hatred we used to have. Its finally over. I am not well. down with asthma last nyte. Was hectic. I was with akai's family all along. Slept over at Maq Ucu's crib and we had a hell of fun watchinq dvds, going for supper and all. I should be thankul to Allah. Yesterday, Dilla, afiq, fyeeqa and ct came over my place to have our projects done. Its regardinq RELIGION. and just pray for gd results! ( I better go siap now before my baby strts to NAGGGG!) toodles.

I am left with 24 hours to ponder. Im lost on how I should begin. I dunoe how to venge my anger. I dun even knoe how to cry. Its painful. Its a gush of mixed emotions. and I am here, by the window, having another puff. I am still not done with the house chores and I am not in the right state of mind. See, despite my silence, ppl kept on talkinq and again, i dun give a damn. Just curious, how on earth could they come up with something so random. Somethinq so untrue. " TALKIN, TALKIN. TALKIN.TALK. BABY LETS JUST KNOCK IT OFF. THEY DUNOE WHAT WE'VE BEEN THROUGH. THEY DUNOE BOUT ME AND YOU." and in the night.. i heard them talking the coldest story ever. again, im keeping it to myself. i will pray for you from a distant without mentioninq even a word to you. kicking off to school tomorrow! goodnight ! OH BTW, FRIENDSTER SUCKS!! SUCKS!! I LOST OVER 600 OF MY CONTACTS. AND NOT ONLY ME, BUT MOST OF THOSE FRIENDSTER USERS! DAMMMNNNEED! ahahaha.

Ive finally made payment for my school fees. I headed all the way to dhoby ghaut, since its much more convenient for me and i dun need to fuggin stop at Jurong E and change to Queenstown. Urghs ! Its the term of my diploma. Im left with one more term and im free. Im thinking of pursuing my degree abroad, actually. But If I do, then perhaps, Im so gonna miss Singapore. Apparently its a good news for those assholes huh? Haha. At least, ppl wun go around bugging me and telling me FABLES AND LIES. It doesnt hurt me but it keeps me laughing and wondering how stupid ppl can be at tymes. so taq perlu. hahs. im just gonna pretend i believed every single werd. Yes, pretend! hhahaha. As from monday onwards, Im so gonna be occupied with work and school. WORK? Hell yea, I got a job. A part tyme teacher for only 4 hours a day. simple qan? hehs. Being surrounded by those cheerful kids is enough to keep me happy and occupied. Similar to my past jobscope in Build-A-Bear workshop. It has been my passio

Im off to school with yaya(akai's younger sister) tomorrow! I hafta pay my school fees. Urgghhs! Im soo syck of ppl bragging me of my whereabouts. Im still around, still alive ok! & I am still using the same number, so mind you, pls? I just need some space now. Things havee been happeninq lately. Be it good or bad, i wun elaborate. Im just soo syck of people assuming and talkinq. please stop your minds fromm running wyld can? Im currently looking for a job. Reason being, bored and I miss earning my own hard cash! But thys tyme round, I wun spent on useless and worthless ppl whom I call, 'friends'. My laptop have been giving me problems lately. my apologies if I havent been onlyne tat often. I'll get it fix soooon! promise! note to my dearest friends : Sorry if you feel neglected. Im soo sorry. Ive come to realise that Im happier with my family. and i really appreciate akai's family for all the advices given. Especially mama akai, thanks for makinq me rea

Im utterly bored. Ok, kakak has been discharged. Alhamdulillah, she pulled through. and the surgery is done and over with. grateful to ALLAH. I am currently waiting for abg pit to come and fetch me! grr! its been fucking 4 hrs.Sabar bella sabar... Haeeshhh!! znng! Ok, I cant wait till school starts again. Im soo missing my "punctuality" and my bitches! Im in no mood seriously. dun ask me why. To : U KNOE WHO U ARE. Naq bobal eh? Bobal uh cni.. Im all ears. Ive got alot to say too. and i hope.. i hope... u understand.... proper update sooooon! to my taggers i will reply soon! keep on taggin! i love U.

ITS 6 AM IN THE MORNING! TO B EXACT, 6.09 AM. AND I CANT PUT MYSELF TO SLEEP! I NYD TO SLEEP. MUST GO HOSPITAL! ARGHH! haha. bye. forcing myself to sleep. perhaps, i should listen to the jigglypuff lullabye now! BELLA.

It appears to me that everone have been falling syck lately. First, it was my sister. 2nd, daddy. 3rd, mama. Now, its my turn to fall syck. My entire body felt weak, i swear! I just couldn't think of food that much. Lets just be blunt honest, I havent been eating lately. I would have One meal a day! Unhealthy ryte? Haiz. I just couldnt eat. Akai's grandma have been telling me, that i lost weight. was a compliment, but to me, im still the same. Apparently, when I went over to visit kakak, i bumped into Danial. A very close friend of an old flame, fauzi. lol! He could hardly recognize me. Well, it left me pondering, how different do I look. Again, he told me he was amazed to see me. I kinda feel awkward though. Well, perhaps, to him i was different because baq then, i was still a girl-preteen, i shall say. I was 14! and now, im 18, turninq 19 next year. Oh, how fast tyme realli flies. Today, I couldnt be bothered to get up.*LAZY mode. Been having the most irritating flu ever. Per