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It appears to me that everone have been falling syck lately.
First, it was my sister.
2nd, daddy.
3rd, mama.
Now, its my turn to fall syck.

My entire body felt weak, i swear! I just couldn't think of food that much. Lets just be blunt honest, I havent been eating lately. I would have One meal a day! Unhealthy ryte? Haiz. I just couldnt eat. Akai's grandma have been telling me, that i lost weight. was a compliment, but to me, im still the same. Apparently, when I went over to visit kakak, i bumped into Danial.

A very close friend of an old flame, fauzi. lol! He could hardly recognize me. Well, it left me pondering, how different do I look. Again, he told me he was amazed to see me. I kinda feel awkward though. Well, perhaps, to him i was different because baq then, i was still a girl-preteen, i shall say. I was 14! and now, im 18, turninq 19 next year. Oh, how fast tyme realli flies.

Today, I couldnt be bothered to get up.*LAZY mode.
Been having the most irritating flu ever.
Perhaps i havent been having much of a rest.
Im seriously lethargic.
Heading to the hospital itself cost me quite a sum.

I just pray kakak will be fine. She is going for her surgery on tuesday.
Im kinda nervous.
The process doesnt hurt, tho it might look eeky!
But, the "after-op" thingy will make U feel entirely tired and weak.
It reminded me of the tymes I had my surgery in KK women's and children Hospital.
I was hospitalized for Appendix and cyst.
Shucks ryte, imagine, 2 growths. One on my right, the other, on my left.
Imagine the pain ive to endure.
Am glad, its all overr. My friends knew, ive been hospitalized not once, not twice, not thrice!
I feel grateful for not having to spend mama and daddy's money on HOSPITALS AND MEDICAL bills, for now.!
Ok, back to my sister.
I believe she is strong enough to face this test from god.
She had an accident months ago.
It almost cost her life.
It was a major surgery.
The surgeon was telling mum that he couldnt guarantee the life of my sister.
Alhamdulillah, thank god, the op went smoothly
So, I have faith in god.
If my sister could face such a serious op, then, i believe, this would b minor for her
As what my mum said, my sister is STRONG. i HAVE TO ADMIT, i agree with mama.
Worried... But i havta stay calm.
Dolly my dear, if U reading this post, do give me a call.
Ive changed my cellphone and ive lost MOST contacts.
No matter what, remember, there's always someone who love U the most.
And thats your dad, my dear.
I believe, he doesnt want to see his princess suffer.
There's always a reason why some people dun make it to the future.
Yes it hurts alot.
YES, it feels like a dagger placed in your heart.
But honey, stay strong.
You are not alone.
You have dad, you have me, diydee, justina, and orange.
Most of all, you have ALLAH.
The creator who gives challenges in life.
Have faith in yourself, have faith in allah, sayang.
Dun let a guy ruin your precious lyfe, baby.
Karma happens.
Allah sentiasa mendengar rintihan dan doa2 kau..
Yakin pada yang satu sayang.
Patience is a virtue.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
Please please give me a call sweetheart!
Im just 8 numbers away.
WITH LOVE,
Bella

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