Melt me with ure kisses.

Tis is my stupid blank expression, Im down ok. really down. How can i not be down when the one i cared fer said such a thing. He said "think im dumb to tell u that.. You dunoe me yet..."

For a moment, it strucked me. Pearl of tears started to drop down tis hue of mine. How could he say such a thing when we haf been thru all our ups and downs together. It takes a small thing to screw up everything. My sister, she's like no longer cumin back to singapore. Him, he hurt me so much last night. Perhaps, he didnt realise what he was saying. But if he does for a moment, Are u willing to let us go after evrything? After years of building tis bond? Or are u blind to see tat. She didnt do tat to u alone. She did the same to me. And just because we are so call "related", u gonna throw me like tat? Im glad i managed to change u to a better man last tyme, and u did change me to a better Bella. Arent u happy to see the real me? Now tat ive changed to the precious bella all of u wanted, ure tellin me tat ure no longer the hafiz i knew? What was tat supposed to min? I seriously hate the name, rei.. ok? Cos to me, he no longer existed. And now u wanna bring tat name back? I was attracted to the guy who cheered me up and fetch me out of school and managed to fight fer my rights knowing what other ppl say was just fable and harsh. And now, rei is returning? Thanks. Go on, just hurt me ok. Ive done my part. I'll remain silent. Last night i tried to call, but my pride wun lemme dial. Take care. I HATE REI AND I MISS MY APIESH!

From the bottom of my heart,

BELLA JAMES

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