Melt me with ure kisses.

Been a busy week. Ive been sacrificing my nite out just fer werk. I need to earn bucks. I dun wanna depen on dad fer money all the tyme. Haf to werk fer my mum. Again today, i saw hym online. I didn't even bother to say hello. Im afraid. Afraid he mite get the wrong idea. Giving hym the letters and shirt. I onli told hym tat online and he replied, shockingly lar. haha. whatever la. I miss hym sia. Forget it la. Im with Eqa now. Be goin out w her tmr.. lol. Work was fun and there's a lot of trainees. Was really fun trainin them. Reminded me of the tymes i started werk. hahahaha. Well,4 more months till school starts~!! "KRINNGGGG.. Bella wake up go school".. Haha. My mum wud alwaes wake me up. WISH ME LUCK OK? I gotta run. With Love, Bella James

Being busy everyday also made me realise how tis precious sweetheart yearns fer me. Pictures above shows how happy he was to see me by hys side. I cuddled hym as soon as i got home. Only god knoes how much i miss hym.. I wun wanna lose another part of me. He made alot of noises just to grab my attention. He even grabbed my uncle's cell phone. Just to show me tat he already know how to dance. He tapped on my thighs and did the clapping action. What he meant was for me to applaud hys talents. I appreciate u, my dearest Luth 'Izz Qaisy.. I will spent most of my time with u now, i promise upon myself. The picture he took on the pillow was also candid. I told him to "bam", Means sleep, in baby language, and he actually jump and fall on the pillow. He does listen to mu instructions. hahaha. I miss hym. alot. I feel like going to bed now, just to hug hym.. tc everyone Love. Bella James

Happy Birthday to my loveliest ex bf , fauzi! Haha. Treated hym to rush hour 3. Followed by rabia. My all tyme bestie. What's fun was the chaos we mad. Wads embarrasing was definitely going into the wrong theatre! Gawd!!! Haha, everyone was like staring when we 1st stepped in. When we got on our sits, we go like ; Fauzi ; U, is tis the correct seat? Me ; Dun ask. i dunno. (Turned to my left and whisper to rabia) Me ; Bia, is tis our correct seat? Rabia ; Someone's taken our seats. Fauzi ; U, i guess, we got it wrg cos the movie's ending.. Us ; S I L E N C E. We are lucky rabia got the initiative to check our tix number. And yes, we got it all wrong. Our theatre was just next door. Without hesitation, we hurried next door. Another silly act of me was not bringing the popcorns and drinks. i left it at the other theatre! Urgh!! Malu! I strongly recommend u guys to watch rush hour 3. I swear u cant stop laughing.. lol! Here i end with tis short msg, HAPPY BIRTH DAY ...

Busy Busy Busy! Was tat alwaes the reason i avoid my friends? Gosh. What haf i done. Tis pictures surely shows the negativity outta me. But heck, i dun wanna be tat anymore. Just lookin into my mum's eyes made me realize how she treasures me. I dun wanna turn precarious. NO! God. I Would rather be me. Apart from tat, im glad work is improving my life. WAY BETTER! Thank god! Ezad cudnt book out.. *SOBS. I've made a few arrangements fer myself.. Spent more tyme with mua family rather den partyin all nite. I fell sick d other nite, Vomitted since 3.30 am. I swear, it hurts. Mum Kept my blood test results again. What else can i do besides pretending? Pretending to laugh and smile? That is my only way out. I've to admit, i miss my late sister so much. Believe me, i havent passed all her letters to her frens. Am i being mean? I'll get it done soon. Oh goshness. I love myself now DESPITE all the shits i must go thru. Hey, tat is life. I've to snap to REALITY! I dun owe a...

Aint my red nose? Lol. Took a shot after all tat i cried. I've decided, im letting hafiz go.. Though its painful, still.. Its the past. Our friendship will be a treasure to me. I may spit out werds of hatred and anger, but deep down, he is still my friend. I failed to see tat all awhile he was there for me. BUt still, i cared. Missing my sister so much. The emptiness is getting stronger by day. I only have mum, abg eddie and my cousins. My friends, thanks a lot.. Ezad, thanks for hearing ,y pleas. I really appreciate it. Rabia. thanks fer holdin me when im falling. Din, thanks fer understanding... He composed songs outta my lyrics. Title ; SAYANG AQIESYA NUR EDREANA Sorrows and happiness Was alwaes shared between us Her laughter was always my spirit My plea was alwaes hers. Thorns tat hurt her Words tat harmed her Life she went thru A diary in my lyfe. Never a moment She stopped and cried Always fighting Hoping for light. Darkness occured Frightened her away Her heart Felt li...

Sorry for not updating my blog fer quite sometime. I've been busy lately. Controversial dramas have been surroundin me lately. I dunt give a damn about what that is gonna happen to me animore. I have my pride and i lead my own life. No one could ever understand me. I understand myself. People can't simply throw themselves in my position. Im beginning to love rumours. Rachel called me yesterday. Thanks fer hearing me out. To my friends out there, im sorry if I've been Missing In Action ( mia ). I Have to go all out to release everything in mind. What is happening , i couldn't understand. I promised myself not to club but now, i spent nites clubbing. I vowed not to drink. and for tat i will always promise. I've never indulge in night life before. Omg. At least, i still noe my limits. I miss you friends. Deep in me, im still the precious bella. Trust me. I swear. Loves. Bella james