Melt me with ure kisses.

Busy Busy Busy! Was tat alwaes the reason i avoid my friends? Gosh. What haf i done. Tis pictures surely shows the negativity outta me. But heck, i dun wanna be tat anymore. Just lookin into my mum's eyes made me realize how she treasures me. I dun wanna turn precarious. NO! God. I Would rather be me. Apart from tat, im glad work is improving my life. WAY BETTER! Thank god! Ezad cudnt book out.. *SOBS.

I've made a few arrangements fer myself.. Spent more tyme with mua family rather den partyin all nite. I fell sick d other nite, Vomitted since 3.30 am. I swear, it hurts. Mum Kept my blood test results again. What else can i do besides pretending? Pretending to laugh and smile? That is my only way out. I've to admit, i miss my late sister so much. Believe me, i havent passed all her letters to her frens. Am i being mean? I'll get it done soon.

Oh goshness. I love myself now DESPITE all the shits i must go thru. Hey, tat is life. I've to snap to REALITY! I dun owe anione my life. I would den say, i owe my parents a lot fer having a hard tyme bringin me up.. I apreciate it..

Love,

Bella James

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