Melt me with ure kisses.

Haters means no shit to me. Yes, i really min it. No shit. Seriously. Hate me / Love me, either way, they actually have thoughts of me and im flattered. How sweet! =) Ive been down with some serious headaches this few weeks and sometimes, its just unbearable. I tend to realise all the reasons to my failure in lyfe. Perhaps, i wasnt a good girl back then. But who cares? It was just plain history. Now, im all grown up and I should have better knowledge on the "do's " and the "don'ts". And im talking about everything. To me , every single person is unique in each and every part of him/her. Most ppl tend to underestimate the younger generation and also ppl who enjoy night life. But again, havent this ppl heard that things doesnt always go your way? Every individual have his/her own personality. Okay, i know, im so random. But its just general, dun U think so? Okay, Its finally my off day cum ka-ching day! Ain't gonna indulge much okay. Gonna get a new pink ...

To Kailontong ; Hey, thanks for tagging. Link me up. I'll link you soon enough. And yea, still remember me? Or was it just random? How have u been doing? To Ayeesha : ey darlinq, nanti I link you kay? berry the berry berry sooon! see you in class! Its 3 45 am and I just finished cleaning the whole house. I've been doing the house chores for 3 straight days now. Woo! Break record you know! lmao. Didn't meet my precious one today since im working . and baby woke up late, so, he stayed home all day long. GOOD BOY! SAYANNNGGG AKAI! hehehs. Samer larh kite, I didnt attend school today ; overslept. Its just a random update, though. Sorry if its short & simple. Im like falling asleep half way already. Better go to bed now. Nights/Morning. ;)

I am super lethargic, i tell you! Having to juggle 2 jobs and school. Yesterday night was a blast at work. was working from 8pm-1am. and, i admit, i was partially drunk. Knowing that i wasnt stable at that point of time, dearest akai fetched and bought me supper. Isnt he sweet at times? ;) Okay, its 16;20 and i just got up from lala land. Heading to work again tonight. And baby is still asleep. haiz! hahs. I seriously have nothing much to blog about now. I hope you understand. for now, im going back to sleep for another 2 hours. BIG PEMALAS, I knoe! hahs.

I somehow miss my fucking long hair! Should i indulge, having extensions again? pfft! Oh and yes, yesterday was rough okay? Had a tiff with my fucken babyboy. Its irritating how u tend to find him flirting and PRETENDING to be single in your presence. There i went, jealous. I knoe, he suke test2, but please ar please please.. ader limits taw! Lucky enough, he know where he stands and now, we are back again. grr. Didnt attend school or work today. penat and alot of things been happening. Headin to hospital soon. Oh and it was such a coincidence to have another couple screen named 'bellakai'. Mcm best gytu qan.? hehes. Last long ayte TITIbelle and Kai ? Oh, i gotta run now. chao!

Below are both updates and pictures on Valentines'. Oh, I know, its tyme for some serious updating! Lol It was a rough start for both me and akai on valentines'. He didn't want to go out since everyone borrowed his items, from top-shoes. Baby wasnt in the best mood and yea, we almost BREAK UP! Rabaq rite? Haha, hell no, we pulled through. Indeed patience is a virtue. Headed town with baby dolly , saw a few bunch of my sweethearts, and im happy to see you, babies. Afterwhich, go makan and dolly decided to have a drink. yea, drink! Called akai up, told hym our plans and yea, both dolly and I headed to woodlands . Met akai and his boys. Okay, I was surprised, dollybaby felt comfortable with us. Well, they helped dolly and we bitched and crapped the whole night. At least, babygirl was happy on valentines'. I made her day! like wow! dolly , u made mine too. Had Vodka , some ice. And yea, baron eh? lol. Dolly was a lil tipsy and i was still Okay, so my duty was simp...

Above are pictures I promised to upload during my trip to Sentosa. So yeah!

See, I told you readers, akai have got hymself a good girl. Being the filial lady, I've finally removed my extensions. And yea, im back with another new look! Love it/Loathe it, diss it! I dun need your comments. Oh, it was heaven i tell you. Pampered myself by giving my scalp a good scrub and hair wash. Went to Reds Salon , Bugis Junction with girlfies, Justina and Dolly. Eat . Smoked. Bitched. Laughed. Shop. Slack. Supposed to meet akai, but that lazy bumbum of myne refused to go work and got hymself 2 days Mc. So, hys spoilt princess chose to go shopping with her chicks. Unfortunately, he wun be seeing me both today and tomorrow, sorry sugar! Partially, im worried for tomorrow. Lets not talk about it. Yesterday, met my happy pills, rabia , shaaa , shaz and allen. We had a hell lots of fun ! and i was super hyper, thanks to my happy pills! Took man's bike and rabia gave me a ride around woodlands. Steady la rabia, da de motor, jgn lupe qiter noh! As for me, i...

Nothing much really happened today. Woke up early, went melawat sekejap, afterwhich passed akai hys money. And he headed to work. I miss that sweetheart of mine supermuch and he knoes tat. He told me to save the days for valentines. Okay la, sweet qan sayang aqu yang sorang ni? But, wth? hahs. and that ficklebickle minded babyboy of mine wants me to have my hair short again! Dier eh suker sangat aqu tukar2 image.. aduiiii! pening ah.. pening sekallii! hehes. nanti larh kay, after v day. PROMISE! Webcam-ed with shasha and yea, nothing much since shaa is super lazae to talk! duhh! Met rabia at her void deck , as usual, smoked . talked. bitched . laughed . and everything. If its bella and rabia, nothing is impossible and impossible is nothing! qan sayangs? We realised tat its been ages since we last stepped out of woodlands together. Haha. akai nyer pasal eh, rabia? hehe. We talked on how we used to roll and how i could last with akai. Its my first time okay? duh! and, yea, akai spec...

Been lazy to update, recently. Haha! Okay, Ive got work from MONDAY-THURSDAY. Saturday and Sunday , I won't be in woodlands. So yea, wun be seeing both BELL AKAI in woodlands or worst, polyclinics! Haha. Above are pictures of me and dolly having our webcam sessions. so geyreq qan? Okay, max and eve came over and yea, been webcaming the whole day! Oh, yea, with fifi and also Zura. Kecoh la qan? Zura, suarer mau kuat kay darlin? haha. I swear, i could barely hear her voice, waduhhh! Wasnt in the best mood. Last afternoon. Ju ; Hello. Bella, qau qatner? Bella ; woodlands arh, apesal? Ju ; akai ade ngan qau? taq qlua dgan akai? Bella ; (takes a deeeep breath) Ju... Ju ; ape? Bella ; (tone of voice changed ; irritated) Asal uh qau slalu qol2 aqu tanyer pasal akai uh? Ju ; ermm. taq, aqu qol2 dier taq dpt. Bella ; qau naq qol2 dier ader ape?? IRRITATING QAU TAWU TAQ! Ju ; (stammers) aqu actually cariq an. Bella ; EY, PANDAI2 QAU ARH! Seriously, she have reached my fucking limits and ...

I havent been in the mood lately. Things happened and I just couldnt put myself together. SchooL? Perhaps, most of you won't be seeing me anymore. Yes, im still on my education path. not to worry. And life? Life is as hell. I am not certain on how my future will be. Perhaps, what both Eve and max said was true. I dun have much confidence in me. Love? We have plans tis upcoming valentines. and yea, I still have trust issues. I min it I LOVE AKAI. I am out of words. I am confused. How am i to tell hym she's out for some show. She potrays that innocent attitude. Telling me things I wish I didn't know. Im positive, its all fable. Im just potraying a facade smile, honey. Listening to my voice, you told me I sounded different. Yes, time will tell you everything. Cos as always, the truth outshines the lies. Qan akai? Beribu kali bella ucapqan, kejujuran itu sangat penting antara kita. Bella yakin akai pasti ngerti apa yang pingin bella sampaikan. Aku kagen banget sama kamu. Aku...