Melt me with ure kisses.

MY HAPPY ENDING Lets talk this over It's not like we're dead Was it something I did Was it something you said? Don't leave me hanging In a city so dead Held up so high On such a breakable thread. You were all the things I thought I knew and I thought we could be... You were everything, everything that I wanted We were meant to be, supposed to be but we lost it All of the memories so close to me just fade away All this time you were pretending, So much for my happy ending. Oh oh, oh oh So much for my happy ending You've got your dumb friends I know what they say, They tell you I'm difficult, but so are they. but they don't know me, Do they even know you? All the things you hide from me All the shit that you do. You were all the things I thought I knew and I thought we could be... You were everything, everything that I wanted We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away ...

and so, it is not over yet. im still on the rocky roads. He sounded really different. When I ask if he has anth gf, he says BULLSHYT. and my fren told me, it could involve a third party. Yes, it breaks my heart. It tears me apart. Not again! no no no... And , he is coming home tmr, how do I face hym? I really feel lyke ending thys. its a gush of emotions. ALLAH. What a test. Baby, i knoe U gonna read thys, if i cant tahan, IM GONNA CANCEL THE ENGAGEMENT. AND YESS, SAQET ATY TAO.. TPY U? haiz. Da larh, tmr can talk.. JDHCKN MDB KJB, DSCX BCGBHJB BJKHKJCHGJKSBKJHSKJHJKHKJHKJDCHKJH!!!! STREESSSSSS!!!!! BELLA

MyHotComments Yes. Ive to agree on that Quote i've found. I admit. There's a lot of differences between us. He is that outdoor and egoistic kinda guy when im the kinda gal who stays at home (i may merayap at tymes douh) and the kind who gives in all the tyme. Ok fyne. We fight ALOT! And i min it, a lot! Just today, I got a fucking hell with hym. Right, he says it wasn't my fault. He returned my call last nyte 23.25. and all i got is hys fucking attitude! he venged out all hys anger. and told me why do i care? I won't give a shyt if I DUN LOVE U ok! And i wun bother if im faking my concerns! I wouldnt go the extra miles just to satisfy u ok? Have U ever considered how i would feel to have U react that way? My dear, i seriously think, something is not right. And i knoe, there's no other lady other than me. Its just your attitude and problems outside. Do u realize that U will act all harsh on me when ure out with those u claim "NYCE PPL". Are they...

MyHotComments Akai dear, can we stop arguing already? Akai dear, can we stop arguing already? Arguments happens all the tyme in relationshyps. Its how U face it that matters. It crushes me to argue again with my precious. We just faced a tough and hanging relationshyp the past month. Im happy enough we pulled thru. Again today, we are fighting. Fighting over something small yet creates a huge impact in my heart. Enough of all the shyts, the challenges, the foes, the rumours and the friends. Baby, we are still here. Yes, tho' we may be staying in one roof, but still, misunderstanding happens. It was my fault fer not opening the door yesterday. But it was partly your fault, baby. U smsed me sayin ure still in camp. I admit, im impressed with the fact that U intended to suprised me by coming home early morning without me knowing. But baby, U know, i need to wash my face every morning before I proceed out of the bedroom. and the fact that i made u wait fer 10 MINUTES leads us to a maj...

Emotions? How do I define? Well, im lost. Its just a mix of emotions. I have no idea how am i supposed to feel. Oh crap, School was fun! Learn a lot about communications, social behavioral, body language and self control. Got lectures again tomorrow. FUNDAMENTALS OF MARKETING , grrr! Mr lecture mr lecture, oh pls make the class more interesting. Im interested but you doze me off and really, i dun understand a single lecture. * fingerscrossed. Oh yea, bf coming home tmr morning. and again, ive to make my way to school and squeeze thru those crowds at JURONG EAST . drrr! Went to Singapore Flyer to return the company's camera and headed home. Im totally shagged. AINT LYING A SINGLE BIT OQEH! Met lots of strange ppl today.. PERSON A : Talking to the railway at Jurong east Mrt ( I admit im afraid, buh i kinda pity hym. He is suffering and yet, a group of ITE BOYS were making fun of hym.. PLS EH! PUT YOURSELF IN HYS POSITION. HOW WOULD YOU REACT?? COMMON SENSE LA CUM ON! ) PERSON...

And so school started todae. It was fun. YES. just hectic as im not feeling too well. Stupid flu and cramps! made lotsa new frends and I realize tat it wasnt a scary mondae! I was nervous before school even started. Tomorrow will be having classes again, communication skills. Alrytes. Akai fetched me and we went to Mcdonalds to grab lunch. Both of us were starving!! Right after, we headed to my void deck and decided to sit fer a while. Of course, he can nver leave hys cigar behynd. LOL! Hys 1sT gf other than me! hmpf! AKAI AKAI, IM 1ST, CIGAR 2ND OK??? hahaha We were talking about all the silly thyngs which occured in mynd when there's tis indian-muslim uncle came along to have a sit. Being courteous couple of the day (self-proclaimed), we decided to let hym have a share of the table. I was hugging akai really tight when he suddenly struck a conversation. Uncle : Are U gonna get married soon ? Bella : Soon. getting engaged next year. Uncle : AWWW.. Coz if ure not, i wann...

Its 11 21 pm and im sleepy. Especially now, after taking my pills. Gawsh. Im exhausted. Okeyy okeyy. Im takin thys opportunity to explain to U, abby, why we cant keep in touch. Firstly, Im attched to my beloved, akai. And tho we may argue all the tyme, i admit, it was partly my fault. I cant be blaming hymm all the tyme. Its me who chose not to trust hym. and because of those friends, I LOST HYM. Now, he's bacq in my lyfe. And im glad we cleared everthyng. I'm still learning how to control my emotions. and now, whenever, he's rough, i'll treat it lyqe a joke. And yes, it is a joke. Im just being too emotional. Well, before hys parents left fer malaysia, I followed hym to court to clear hys probation thingy and to change hys addie. He's grandma has plans in mynd. (i bet u knoe). Both our parents agreed. Akai just smiled and gave me a hugg. He's mum had a talk with my mum. Talking about how our relationshyp is and what are the plans like in future? Akai has to fin...

So now, talking to my precious and bearing the pain ive to face. HORMONAL IMBALANCE. it strucked me again. I've got to B strong and endure. Tomorrow is already the 1st dae of school. Im confused with how im supposed to feel. HAPPY is a yes. Im excited to start school. Just tat im not feeling well. Stayed home and slept the whole day. Oh yes, talk to my precious as well. He teased me 1 whole dae! U gonna get it frm me tomorrow!! Hahahas. Im waitin fer mum to get herself all dolled up. Gettin stuffs fer my school. Jeez. My bag's gonna be damn heavy. glad, akai's fetching me frm school and he promised to help me carry my books and laptop! Thanks baby. I LOVE U EVEN MORE. Mum is calling. I GOTTA RUN! and abby, if ure reading tis, pls stop calling my cell. im just not interested. you will knoe why on my next update.. TaQaire. Bella

Im glad. Glad that I have my baby by my side. Its sad to separate from the one that U really love . Im just so happy that things went smoothly fer the both of us. And the fact that its getting even better, made me the happiest girl on earth. Went out with my precious today. He treated me BLACK PEPPER BEEF FRIED RYCE and my favourite ICED LEMON TEA. Thanks sayang. Didnt take any photos today as my precious is BOTAQ. Lol. Baru qluar db mahh... Haha. Will be going out with hym again. and yess, im still talking to hym.. now. and he knoes im blogging. sorry larling, im not focusing on all your "celotehs". To be honest, he is angry I didnt take my medicines. lol. baq to where we are. I had a great tyme todae. I poured out all my worries and troubles to hym. Glad he understands. And he hugg me when he knoes I really need it, Thanks, baby. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. AKAI : Baby, I knoe ive trusted your friends too much. And I apologize fer all the unnecessary tiff. I love you for t...

I have no idea whats with the 2nd post of myne. Like, STOP IT, BELLA !! Hahaha. Yeay, BF is finally outta DB and he will be staying with me as from friday onwards. He will be occupying brother's empty room. Hys mum will be staying in JB fer 2 years and here he is, stucked in singapore alone. He has hys grandma actually, buh he chose to be with me instead. Mama is ok with it as long as nothing stupid happens. ! Love you, hahaha. Pity hym , he lost hys mobile. Goshness. Dun weri dear, no gals to lose rite? U will c me everyday from fridae onwards. hahaha. Love U dearest akai. Forgyve me fer not trusting U and trusting your friends instead. I should have known U better. Sorry fer the disappointment. Glad U understand my insecurities. Just hope, things get even better now on. U knoe, I love U and I cant bear losing U, AGAIN! I knoe, im the one who left. But pls eh? Dun let hystory repeat. I trust U now. Lovelove _ Preciously, One and Only , P Z Bella James pinkisLOVE

My fun loving bear builders. We even have our face painted. Had a party and trained Shan to be a party leader of 20 kids. He handled the party really well. COMPLIMENTS to U. It was the best party ever. The host even gave us biscuits, cakes and fries. But, we were all plunged in sweat. Store was a total mess and we headed home at arnd 23.15. Pathetic? Lucky, hwee sung got me to claim my cab fare home. Yee Ling resigned. and it was different without herr around. I really myss the old fun we had but now, ive gotta have a barrier between myself and the staff. This isnt the wae. But, i shall just comply. Work has been stressing me up lately, and yess, im no longer happy with the new rules set. I cant say much. Maybe, i gotta adapt. But i really can take it no longer. Down with a feverr, and urgh! I shall sae, im resigning... Its sad tho' to leave my fellow bear builders. They were like " BELLA, DUN LEAVE US LA. YL LEFT, NOW, PLS NOT U ". But well, what can I say if i...

My sweetheart is in DB. 3 days only, fer a stupid reason. He was caught sleepy during guard duty.. Haha. Pity hym.. Anyway.. IM HAVING A FEVERR!! LOVE BELLA