Melt me with ure kisses.

person who tagged you: syasya relationship with her: my gf since primary school! 5 impressions u have on him/her; understanding, crazy, can be shy, sweet, funny! memorable thing she/he has done for you: help me thru . a lot ok? =) if she/he becomes your lover,you will: if she's a he. i will TAKE GD CARE OF HER. if she's a she ; NOOOO! if he/she becomes your enemy,you will: regret. dun want it to happen. choy! he/she becomes your enemy the reason will be: she did sumthin reli wrg! betrayal? .the desirable thing you want do for him/her now is: make her happy alwaes! your overall impression of him/her is: a gd fren indeed. how do you think people around you feel about you: i dun knw. they haf their set of minds. characteristics you love about yourself: my patience, bubbly and ez going! .characteristics you hate about yourself: always hiding my feelings and trust others easi...

Currently listening to Footprints in my heart. Sorry fer being all emotional here. Being in love intoxicates everyone, especially when its your 1st tyme loving sumone. Dun get me wrong. I ain't attached. Lol! No tyme fer relationships yet. I would definitely lie if i say, i dun love enione at tis point of tyme. But i do love someone. Of course. Its a bad feeling to keep ure feelings unknown. And i will forever keep that feeling in me. Egoistic? Hehehehe. Well, im just here blogging. Im out of my rationality. Im not thinking straight. I just feel like running away. from everyone. To think of it again, I can't. I have to stay strong and pull thru. Insya'allah, Allah will give me guidance. I will continue praying and seek forgiveness from God. Perhaps Tis is just a retribution. Or is it karma happening? Gosh, i did a lot in my past, and i wun wanna look back. If its retribution, i will accept. If its a test, i would accept. Who am i to push everything away? I am just a hum...

Walk with me thru all the darkest path. Hide My tears in all your hugs. Help me run when I just couldnt run. To girls out there, never ever lose to love and sympathy. Instead, fight fer your pride and dignity. What people might think or say. shut them off. U should knoe it aint true. Here is my story and it begins with me fer a start. If u were to be close to me, you would definitely knoe how cheerful and bubbly i was. Now, All i could think of is definitely saving my life. People searching fer me fer all the wrong reasons. and its definitely not my fault. A jerk who always call and ask me my whereabouts. Hitting me fer all he cared. And strangers claiming they knoe me when they dun. You wun get the clear picture, cos whats happening to me is unexplainable. Just remember. To always stay strong. I have no one to confide in. Im just afraid to speak. I only trust 1 guy to hear me out. Cos he has always been there fer me. And i was always there fer hym. Lil did I knoe, that he doesnt se...

Pictures taken on the 20th september and 26th september. It was just me and my girlfriend.. Err, dun get me wrong aite! My bestfriend. She's like a sister to me. 5 years of friendship going 6, and still standing strong. Happy birthday, dear sis. May God Bless U in everything U do. Gal, U knoe, im alwaes a phone call away. Nurartiqah, The girl who has the keys to all my darkest secrets. ALways sharing our sorrows and laughters. We may argue at tymes but hey, It was just rumours of the red eye. Why bother? The truth is, we know each other best. Rite eqa?... Lol! I made her birthday a memorable one, i guess. I was broke and dad couldnt trf me cash due to some transaction problems and I used all tat im left with fer her card and keychain tat holds her name and her favourite ace of heart. She likes it. Well, its just a token from me to show her how much i treasure her. Thanks sis. Bella hearts eqa... Love, Bella James

Lovely friends i have. E'qa And Rabia, thanks fer hearing me out. I know ure sick and tired of me crying and grieving 2 whole months. Its already the 1st week of fasting month, alhamdulillah, i get to feel the pleasure of fasting again. Sadly, last year, it was the last tyme i celebrate both puasa and hari raya with her. I miss kakak so much. Last year, she was always asking me to go buy air katira and goreng pisang. Now, i dun even bother to go to the bazaar. Last night, i couldn't sleep. I kept on picturing her with me joking around. I miss her hugs. Oh, Allah, forgive me. I hope, my mind will be at ease soon. As for me, im confused again. What is happening to me now is very similar to my late sister. My ex boyfren tried to grabbed my attention. I didn't bother. He just hit me fer all he cared. I knoe, a jerk! Life, a lot of strangers has been askin bou me lately and I am trying to avoid the scene. I dun wanna return to who I was. It was dark past. I dun wann recall any...

Had my off days. Finally. After having to deal with fullshifts and long hours. DON'T GET THE WRONG IDEA. Im loving werk. So loving it. Haha. Life has been great lately and i've finally learnt to manage my time. Bella is much more punctual now compared to last tyme. Lol. Abang Eddie is going back to camp next week. LOL! Reservice mah. Haiyor. Im so in love with my penguin (mumbles) soft toy. Insane as i may be, i do hug and sleep with it though. Lol! Straight to the point, i was browsing thru friendster and read thru all my testimonials. Reminded me of all tat happened to me. Sweet memories. It made me smile fer a moment. Everyone is also asking why havent i been talking to Hafiz. Well, perhaps coz its not the time yet. We are ok la. Still in terms. Our scores? settled. Lol. It was just me who became panic and think of all the negativities. Paranoid. Why would we be so blue when im true and he's true? Aiyo.. Korang nie, dun think otherwise aite. Im fine. Aint crying no more....

I went over to hafiz's house on the 20th aug to pass hym all letters and also hys long sleeve top. Lucky he wasnt home. So, it was hys mum and hys younger bros. I spoke to hys mum and did what im supposed to do. A relief i could say. Im blogging again just about hym? Gosh, i do care, actually. I think we are ok now. Just that we are both busy with lives. Oh yea, work has been occupying my tyme. Haha. WORK IS GETTING BETTER NOW! SIMPLY LOVE MY WORKPLACE. halloween is around the corner and i still dunnoe what to wear. Gosh. What shall i be? Im over and out at Qaisy's birthday party. Will definitely upload hys pix.he's wearing a penguin outfit! cutes! Lotsa love, Bella James