Melt me with ure kisses.

Currently listening to Footprints in my heart. Sorry fer being all emotional here.

Being in love intoxicates everyone, especially when its your 1st tyme loving sumone.

Dun get me wrong. I ain't attached. Lol! No tyme fer relationships yet.

I would definitely lie if i say, i dun love enione at tis point of tyme. But i do love someone. Of course. Its a bad feeling to keep ure feelings unknown. And i will forever keep that feeling in me. Egoistic? Hehehehe.

Well, im just here blogging. Im out of my rationality. Im not thinking straight.

I just feel like running away. from everyone.

To think of it again, I can't. I have to stay strong and pull thru. Insya'allah, Allah will give me guidance. I will continue praying and seek forgiveness from God. Perhaps Tis is just a retribution. Or is it karma happening? Gosh, i did a lot in my past, and i wun wanna look back. If its retribution, i will accept. If its a test, i would accept.

Who am i to push everything away? I am just a human being. a gerl searching fer answers in her life. Wondering whats gonna happen next and hope fer a better tomorrow. I thank all of u who haf been listening to me. PPl like rabia and Eqa, I appreciate..

Im sick now. Physically, i look ok. Inside me, only God knoes.

Just hope and pray i'll pull thru especially now, its the fasting month. A month full of blessings.

I pray fer the best. Not just fer me but also, everyone.

I love U..

Bella James

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