Melt me with ure kisses.

Walk with me thru all the darkest path. Hide My tears in all your hugs.

Help me run when I just couldnt run.

To girls out there, never ever lose to love and sympathy. Instead, fight fer your pride and dignity.

What people might think or say. shut them off. U should knoe it aint true. Here is my story and it begins with me fer a start. If u were to be close to me, you would definitely knoe how cheerful and bubbly i was. Now, All i could think of is definitely saving my life. People searching fer me fer all the wrong reasons. and its definitely not my fault.

A jerk who always call and ask me my whereabouts. Hitting me fer all he cared. And strangers claiming they knoe me when they dun.

You wun get the clear picture, cos whats happening to me is unexplainable.

Just remember. To always stay strong.

I have no one to confide in. Im just afraid to speak.

I only trust 1 guy to hear me out. Cos he has always been there fer me. And i was always there fer hym. Lil did I knoe, that he doesnt seem to bother. Especially now, when im in the dark searching fer light. Tears undried. Smiles slowly fading.

Bella You knew, No longer existed. I hope i'll return to the bubbly bella again. I need tyme and i need support. My smiles and laughters, all facade. I will never show the pain within. Yes, im tempted to run and be free. Hey, I just couldnt. Its just a hard path fer me. Now, i understand how my late sister felt.

Pain, sorrows and miseries.

What i regret the most, is definitely hys ignorance. He was said to be a brother to me. Is it even true? Does he even care? I love a certain someone and just hid my feelings all along. WHY? Cos, its a sacrifice i made to see someone else happy.

Its just bella. The girl who only knoes how to hide her tears inside.

Smiles faded again

Bella James

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