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Trust issues sucks right? I mean, most ladies would definitely agree on that.
People might see me as an open-minded, heck care kinda babe, Unfortunately, i have a lot of insecurities. And I need to execute that feeling away from me . It would definitely lead to an unhealthy conflict .

I am very happy to be blessed with a 3 year relationship.
and i thank allah for giving me th guidance through out.
See, all i ever need is just a piece of honesty and faithfulness from my other half.
And im blessed to have one.

But recently, i realized i cant restrict or command someone to do something they would repeat.
I agree, once, twice, thrice, you will always do a lil give and take.
However, when th limit has been breached, then, thats it.

I will never end this relationship. If i have the power to control things, i would want things to sail smooth. Nevertheless, control my emotions.

Th problem is me and its an irritating fact.
I do trust him. But i have precautions too.
Now, im so gonna shut my eyes, bite my lips, lock my tongue.
I am never gonna open up. Neither would i suspect.
Even if th suspicion is there, i'll pretend, nothing ever occur.
Hence, blame it on my PMS.

So, if anything were to go wrong, i will definitely blame myself for not being a good girl.
I am seriously sick with th problems occurring every now and then.
Im tired of these sleepless nites.
Sick of these eyebags.
Deprived from my past and im really tired of crying.

I hate th fact that once i fall in love i fall hard and i will go all out in a relationship.
However, this tyme round, things will change.
I will be stronger than i was before.
And i will face and fight for everything.
In fact, what doesnt kill me, makes me stronger.

So even if i smile, or laugh, it doesnt mean im happy.
Sometimes, i do pretend to save a bond, friendship or relationship.
I have swallowed enough.
And, th pain is just unbearable.

And as for you ppl who keeps on talking behind my back,
I knoe you love it, you can eat my shit.
Hate me, then face me.
I dun need unneccessary stress for now.
I really need a time-off.
My mind is in a mess.
My heart is lost .
so please, understand.


AND I LOVE MY BABYBOY A LOT !

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