Melt me with ure kisses.

Pardon my masai face and my ubber short shorts.
I was at home, so, what d'you ppl expect?
Anyways, my dreams have been telling me things, i guessed.
Last few nights, i dreamt of me walking in th middle of th cemetery.
Afterwhich, i headed to somewhere near th entrance and realized that at every angle there is at least a 'pontianak' standing, doing nothing.
It scares me off my veins.
and i couldnt sleep after that.

I've been asking myself why I kept on dreaming something weird and scary.
So, i drank my hot milo and headed back to sleep.
I really forced myself to sleep since i didnt wanna wake akai up and disturb hys charming sleep.
Right after, i dreamt of weird creature.
Its tall, its black and i couldnt see the face.
Th creature is trying to make me suffer and kill me.
Again, i woke up, this time, in cold sweats.
I got so scared, i switched the lights on and chant some surah2 that i know of.

I woke up, told mama about it.
Mama just gave me a hug.
Akai, he says , its nothing.

After a few days, things have been happening in my life.
People have been messing with my life.
Trying to backfire me.

My own friend whom i actually treated like a sister, turned her back away and said the darnest things about me.
Out of rage, i cried, feeling all disappointed.
I trusted her so much, she actually played my back.

No matter how furious or angry i am towards her, ive never spread a rumour about her neither have i revealed her secrets. Tables have turned, i guessed? 8 years, and its over.
Why i say its related to my dreams?
Take a look at th cemetery, the pontianaks and me, and the night scenery.

PONTIANAKS - Ppl who messed my life
NIGHT - Darkness

So, the people who messed my life actually buries me deep down my own graveyard, making me suffer, hence, feel all depressed and in th dark.

CREATURE - Them again

Trying to kill me alive.

Make sense doesnt it?

Okay, im so down right now.
Maybe, my sacrifices isnt enough that they havta actually play these games.
Even now, its hurting me, their secrets is safe in my hands.
Maybe, they wun realize, or they would.
IM NOT THAT RICH AS WHAT YOU PPL MIGHT THINK.
I DON'T OWN TH FUCKING CASH.
I DIDNT EARN IT.
ITS FROM MY DAD.
SO PLEASE, STOP THINKING I HAVE ALL THE MONEY.

And just because of a sum, ppl get agitated.
I think, th money ive spent for you people is just more then enough.
Im not gonna ungkit. taq heran pon.
At the end of the day, aqu pe yang jahat. aqu tawu.
and..
i understand, nie la manusia,jasa org tidak terlihat, jahat org semuernye nmpk...

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