The one that im most devoted to .
The one I shared everything with .
The one that makes me cry and laugh at the same tyme.
Everything about us is just so perfect.
Except for the fact that th both of us have our own temper.
And th both of us seem to be totally opposite .
At tymes, when i've had my ego, akai would say "macam ye ye".
By right, ive got my reasons .
Nowadays, just nowadays, we barely lepak outside, we hardly go jalan2, we hardly have fun tymes outside.
I miss th tymes i hang out w hym.
Miss th tymes, he criticized my pool skills.
Miss th tymes, we had our fun playing games in th arcade.
Miss th tymes we go out to hunt for rojak.
Miss th tymes we went out for a movie.
Miss th tymes i watch hym play soccer.
Miss th tymes i see hym fall asleep on my shoulders.
Miss th tymes we spent outside.
Nowadaes, i can't follow hym whenever he is w hys frens.
At tymes when im down and all alone, all i need is hym.
and at tymes when i get mad, all i want is a hug.
At tymes when I argue, i want him to understand.
At tymes when im afraid, i wanna lay right next to hym..
At tymes when im lonely, i wanna hear hym say he loved me, like how he used to.
To hym, im being unreasonable.
To hym, im irritating.
Yes i am.
Tho i see hym evry morning and every night,
I really miss the times i have with hym.
I miss every single time i spent with hym.
Now, as im spending my tymes with my girls,
It looks as tho as im single when im not..
My girls kept asking, "ey, qau dgn akai kn loving couple, da taq qlua together?".
It cuts me so deep inside, i just smiled and say "Akai busy..".
Akai sayang ..
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND YOU KNOW THAT.
YESTERDAY I WAS OFF YOUR LIMITS.
AND I WAS ON YOUR NERVES.
I AM SO SORRY I'VE BEEN IRRITATING.
FOR WHATEVER REASONS,
I DO LOVE YOU AS A WHOLE.
8 BILLION PPL IN THE WORLD, AND ALL I WANT IS YOU.
YOU KNOW, I WOULD DO AND RISK ANYTHING FOR YOU.
YOU KNOW I WOULD FIGHT FOR YOU.
NOW THAT IVE GOT THE MOST OF YOU,
I JUST WANT THE BEST OF YOU.
AFTER DADDY LEFT SINGAPORE,
AND MAMA IS BUSY,
YOU KNOW, I RELY ON YOU.
AND YOU KNOW I CNT BEAR LOSING YOU.
AND DARLINQ,
I HOPE YOU WUN BE MAD IM POSTING THIS ENTRY.
I COULD BARELY SPEAK.
AND IM GONNA BE SILENT AND LET YOU DO WHATEVER YOU WANT.
even if it breaks my heart.
With love, The one and only, Bella James.
Dramas.Hypocrites.Pests.Failure. 
