Melt me with ure kisses.

Its 6 30 am and I just got baq to my crib.
Well, happy enough to have spent tyme with my baby .
In the meanwhile, im feeling all down and confused.
I have nothing much to elaborate here, since its personal.

All I need is some answers. Time after time, ive been confused by my own conscience and intuitions and now, i've finally learnt the truth.
Its true enough, the truth hurts.

I'd rather have the truth than living my life with doubts.
Now that it breaks me apart, i need space .
I've yet to move on with my life and pretend its not hurting me .

How the world seems cruel and harsh on me.

I need guidance from you, allah .

and im quitting my job .

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