Melt me with ure kisses.

Hey, readers. Dun get bored ok?? I knoe i've been missing in action fer half a year. haha. Well, bella's been busy tis few months.

Lotsa events and work to do. As mentioned in my older posts, i gotta earn that cash..

Things changed now, Back to my single lyfe.

CURRENT EMOTION : happy.SAD.unpredictable.

My ex boyfren, Shakir, Just passed away, 2 days ago. He died of an accident.

Before he left, he told me that he is still in love with me.

He wanted to seek akai's permission to bring me out fer just a day.

But i refused to date hym out coz I knoe if i look into hys eyes, i will cry and cry.

He has planned everything fer my birthday.

and now, everything is left undone.

" Princess, If u ever want me to prove u how much i loved u, i can never do it. I can only pray to God that u will realise how sincere i am towards u. AND IF I REALLY CAN WISH FOR SOMETHING, I WOULD SAY, GOD TAKE MY LIFE AWAY IF I REALLY CANT SHOW HER HOW MUCH I LOVE HER"

Hys wish was granted, He left me two days after we spoke over the phone.

Now i realize, i can never have things the way i wanted.

i ought to realise that things happen fer a reason.

I Miss you, Akir.

Back to my affairs,

Work is fun! Sadly, my darling yl is leaving us.. Haiz.

Gonna miss all her fun and nags.. Hehes.

Akai, ive dumped hym recently. Dun give a fuck no more. Guys are really PROBLEMATIC, DRAMATIC AND IDIOTIC!

ayte, gtg now, will updsate more. SOON okeh!

Bella James

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