Melt me with ure kisses.

Akai and I.. We got better now. Thank gawd after the loooong Tiff!! Urgh. Hys mum knocked me into senses. Thanks to hys frens fer being sucha barrier. Wadda hell la. I dun gyve shyt now. Honestly, I am not into relationshyp. But both our families agreed to us. And Akai's family has really high hopes. *fingers crossed.

Let me just follow the flow and see where this leads to. He is a changed person after I left hym pondering. Im sorry i went with other guys. They are merely frens. And trust me, it can never happen again. Just let me have a peace of mind fer now. I wouldnt wanna act on impulse or empathy..

Work is Fun fun fun. I love my bear builders and and MY CWM yee ling!! You're the best. She taught me a lot of stuffs. Its her who motivates me all the tyme. I really appreciate you. BEARY Much of LOVE, yl!

Akai's sister took my "b" trademark necklace. She wants it badly as she told me, she will miss me alot! I love you, iqah. I wun leave ya brother. I simply cant especially after you take both our hands together. Mama, papa, Udyn, yaya, abg, adeq.. No worries. I just need space fer now ok.. Im just being plain egoistic. I no longer believe in promises. If u need to promise, PROVE it...

i dun want mere werds. Dun give me hopes. So farr, im ok..

My birthday is cominq. let us just see, whose gonna make me SMILE WIDE. Hahahaha.

My brother, he's finally serious with hys GF! Thank god..

Above all. im happy now. Shakir, rip.

Tmrs my off day and going KaiKai with akai's family.. watch Kung Fu panda. Sorry akai cnt join the fun.. He's in camp!!! Hahahahahaha..

I'll c ypu when u book out, sweetheart.

I knoe its hard to understand my heart. But deep inside. Im soft. Trust me.!

Lolls..

Aitess... Gtg...

Love and kisses,

Bella James

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