Melt me with ure kisses.

Its weird to have me surrounded by all my past. But, I appreciate it.

I used to not appreciate those around me. Bitch huh? Haha, But hey, i was younger back den..

Today is the 19/11... wOw.. Tyme really flies and its gonna be 2008 soon - in a month. Two years since I last hung out with hym. Ok now, Lyfe is getting better. Yes, i min it.. B E T T E R!!

Pleasure of my own privacy, leisure and JOY. That fcuka is outta my lyfe and yes, he gets to taste hys own glass of wine. I cant wait. Cant wait till he rot and die in prison... He's suffering and Im enjoying what i call, LIFE.

Im seventeen. Young, curious, Naive and of course bold. He may look at me as im one of those trash along the road. Retard, i aint no junk. maybe, he ought to realise tat im tat jewel in the junk. Not being boastful or whatsoever. But what more do U expect in a gerl, who doesnt even drink, smoke or even club. Ok, i did club. But i was with my brother. I dun bother to put on what u call, concealers, compacts, foundation, mascaras, blusher or even gloss. Im out with only my eyeliner. and body mist, of course. I dun even give a fuck to surrender my body to my lover. NO WAY! And do i deserve all those beatings and torture by tat fcuka?

I dun think so. In my professional term of logic, I dun think girls should be hurt and demoralize tat way. Girls are known to be sensitive, fragile and soft. But at the same tyme, we, girls, should not take the advantage to hurt and shit on guys. Not all guys are as bad as thugs and not all ladies are as bitchy as a bitch. Still, everyone have their pride.

I have my reasons fer being so mad at guys. Ok. im slowly healing from the shyt that ive been thru. Gawsh, i cant focus even at werq.

Im syck olryte. Mum hid my blood test result, again.. Just what is the outcome of my blood test?

LOVE,

bella james

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