Melt me with ure kisses.

Its weird to have me surrounded by all my past. But, I appreciate it.

I used to not appreciate those around me. Bitch huh? Haha, But hey, i was younger back den..

Today is the 19/11... wOw.. Tyme really flies and its gonna be 2008 soon - in a month. Two years since I last hung out with hym. Ok now, Lyfe is getting better. Yes, i min it.. B E T T E R!!

Pleasure of my own privacy, leisure and JOY. That fcuka is outta my lyfe and yes, he gets to taste hys own glass of wine. I cant wait. Cant wait till he rot and die in prison... He's suffering and Im enjoying what i call, LIFE.

Im seventeen. Young, curious, Naive and of course bold. He may look at me as im one of those trash along the road. Retard, i aint no junk. maybe, he ought to realise tat im tat jewel in the junk. Not being boastful or whatsoever. But what more do U expect in a gerl, who doesnt even drink, smoke or even club. Ok, i did club. But i was with my brother. I dun bother to put on what u call, concealers, compacts, foundation, mascaras, blusher or even gloss. Im out with only my eyeliner. and body mist, of course. I dun even give a fuck to surrender my body to my lover. NO WAY! And do i deserve all those beatings and torture by tat fcuka?

I dun think so. In my professional term of logic, I dun think girls should be hurt and demoralize tat way. Girls are known to be sensitive, fragile and soft. But at the same tyme, we, girls, should not take the advantage to hurt and shit on guys. Not all guys are as bad as thugs and not all ladies are as bitchy as a bitch. Still, everyone have their pride.

I have my reasons fer being so mad at guys. Ok. im slowly healing from the shyt that ive been thru. Gawsh, i cant focus even at werq.

Im syck olryte. Mum hid my blood test result, again.. Just what is the outcome of my blood test?

LOVE,

bella james

Popular posts from this blog

Tis is my stupid blank expression, Im down ok. really down. How can i not be down when the one i cared fer said such a thing. He said "think im dumb to tell u that.. You dunoe me yet..." For a moment, it strucked me. Pearl of tears started to drop down tis hue of mine. How could he say such a thing when we haf been thru all our ups and downs together. It takes a small thing to screw up everything. My sister, she's like no longer cumin back to singapore. Him, he hurt me so much last night. Perhaps, he didnt realise what he was saying. But if he does for a moment, Are u willing to let us go after evrything? After years of building tis bond? Or are u blind to see tat. She didnt do tat to u alone. She did the same to me. And just because we are so call "related", u gonna throw me like tat? Im glad i managed to change u to a better man last tyme, and u did change me to a better Bella. Arent u happy to see the real me? Now tat ive changed to the precious bella all o...

How much pale can i be. Especially with tis sickness of mine. Forget abt tat... Well, life has been a ok. I miss my sister douh.. Hehe. Thanks ppl fer having so much concern towards me.. Btw, i have a best friend who means a lot to me. But till todae, im still figurin out wad he meant.. Lets cut it short, My sis was on the phone with hym. and i was busy talking to my abg eddie. All i did was rejected most guys who wanted me to be their babe. So, abg eddie was like "Bella, when will u find ure prince charming..? If u continue to reject guys, jawabnyer , anak dare tue lah kao.." Den i replied hym " Prove to me a guy who knoes his own heart, to him i shall belong. And he should love me fer who i am and can be trusted and appreciates my heart.".. Suddenly, my bestfriend interfered, "depan mata ade pe..".. Until todae, im still figurin out wad DEPAN MATA is.. Hehe... He is a guy with a golden heart. Oh yess, i broke up wit anis already. I wish i wun have t...

Music Playlist at MixPod.com Where are those happy days, they seem so hard to find? I tried to reach for U, But U have closed your mind. Whatever happened to Our love? I wish I understood. It used to be so nice. It used to be so good. U seem so farr away though ure standing near. U made me feel alive but something died I fear. I really tried to make it out. I wish I understood. What happened to our love? It used to be so good. So when you're near me darlinq, cant u hear me sos? The love u gave me, nothinq else can save me, sos. When you're gone, how can I even try to go on. When you're gone though, I try, how can I carry on?