Melt me with ure kisses.

What happened to me last few nights was a nightmare. serious.
I could still feel my heart beating fast. I was running again. Lucky, i escaped. Haiz. Lets not talk about that. Oh ya, daddy is back In singapore and He is getting darker and looked more malay mix now. haha. I was like telling hym tis ' Daddy, you dun look like a eurasian anymore'. And he was like ' Dear, It doesnt matter, im still gd looking.' We laughed the whole day.

Daddy came back on the eve of hari raya. 1st time in 6 years now. It was my 1st time breaking fast with dad as well. Dad looked really shagged. He came back right on tym. I need hym. He hugged me as I confessed my heart ouy. He told me he was proud to have a daughter like me.

wasnt rely hari raya fer us
we miss the spice of our beloved Sayang Aqiesya Nur Edreanna.evri1 tot i was her. Especially now, my hair is short and i have the same hi lites as her. we moved on. Went to dad's apartment at clearwater. Amazed when i 1st stepped in.Beautiful. Dad's returnin spain 2mr morning. sad i couldnt send hym. I've got a new job. SIA. hehe. Cnt wait!!!!
I gotta run.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI.
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.
NO GRUDGES AITE, READERS.

Love ya!

Bella James

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