Melt me with ure kisses.

I was bashed up d other dae! I lost my sister and grandma weeks ago. My ex bf was caught in an accident yesterday... And todae was goddamn DILEMMA!!! I was in the middle. Hafiz on my left and Anis on my right. I didnt noe which to pick. I need to sort things out with the both of them. I couldnt decide. Ray was already shouting "BELLA! QUICK. HAFIZ IS GETTING FAR FROM US!!!!". Shucks! I couldnt think. I wanted real bad to reach out to hafiz. I miss tat guy so so much. More den werds could express.! Urghss. Anis was givin me tis ' I need to talk' kinda look. Astaga.. God. pls help me. I text hafiz..

Hafiz ; Who are you?

Bella ; Bella.

Hafiz ; Bella? Hu are u looking for?

Bella ; Whichever. Hafiz or Rei. I dun mind. Pls. Pls.

Hafiz ; Sory. He's nt using this number anymore. He swap no wit me. Im tiara.

Bella ; There's a letter from my late sis. Pls tell him its urgent.

Hafiz ; I will gt to him.

Bella ; But ure mum told me u didnt swap phone, apiesh.

Hafiz ; Apiesh. Yes. Tat was wat he said he was called. Before he was with me. Well, there is call diversion if u wanna know why its easy fer us to swap phones.

Bella ; Ok fine. All the best to the both of you. U are very lucky to have such a treasure. He rejected me as hys close friend and i hope u would pls take a veri gd care of hym. Dun break hys heart.

U knoe wat hafiz, Im not the bella u used to knoe. im not an idiot. Im not as slow as what u think. Diversion is a matter of calls. And not sms. DUMB! and whats so difficult to contact each other when both are the same. DUMB! Hey.. Listen, u broke my heart, And i dun gyv a shit! But remember. U broke two hearts! Wad i couldnt accept is tat u leave me without any explanaition why. Wada hell is wrg with u??? what do u take me fer? U said i was stupid to believe anis, fauzi and my other ex? Am i not stupid to trust u more den i trust myself?? Am i just an illusion, standing there, helping u out with all ure deepest secrets. U ureself knw wad we diD. And still ure in a state of denial? WOWNESS!! IM IMPRESS LA MUHAMMAD NURUL HAFIZ BIN RUSLAN! SYABAS! Thanks fer throwing everything away!!!!!!!!! I respect you! Oops. wrong. I respect your change. Fooyoh!

Bella James

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