Melt me with ure kisses.

My current status ;

My present mood ;

Im stucked. Totally. I knoe. I knoe who my heart calls for. and i knew it from the start.

Its always hym. has always been him.. Forget tat, lets talk about sum other stuffs. My sista's condition is lyke gettin from bad to worse. I've nothing much to say and i really feel all broken. Omg. TODAY, I NEED MIRACLES!! PLS, happen. pls.. Im not prepared. Not prepared fer anth downfall. NO NO NO!! NEVER.. I've been hangin out lately just to forget wad the meaning of pain. Its pointless. To cry over and over again and still, i have to face another chapter of future history.

Geeshh ..

On the happier side of me. Lady luck seems to be with me all the tyme. And i thank God fer the success and happiness he gave. I do believe that God is the greatest. It may be a downfall today, but who knoes, it would b the biggest celebration ever tomorrow? Am i not wrong. Im standing still, yet, having faith in everything tat i do. Well, what can i say.. ITS LIFE..

Yeay, mama bought me two gowns. A red long halterneck and a classic black for dinner next week. Revamping my room soon!!!!! Cant wait to see the outcome of my plans! Hahahahaha.

To kak Milin, Selamat pengantin baru! ( advance )

To abg dee and kak jee , selamat pengantin baru! ( advance )

Lots and lots of LOVE,

BELLA JAMES

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