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My love is FRAGILE ; beautifully broken. calm with a storm.


My love is fragile. Its hard fer me to express how i feel rite nw. But i can't help but to be CONFUSED. I called hym askin if he wanna tag along tmr. Go and watch firewerqs. But it ended up differently. I asked hym a different Question instead.
I asked if hys ok and if i've done enitin wrg till he gave me a cold shoulder.~SUDDENLY.
Its a Question unanswered fer months and i've got da answers just now. Fer da whole of our conversation, he was silent and hence, i sense sumthg. He never acted dyz cold towards me before. Its like da ferz time in da whole year. I asked hym why.
And what raged me was dyz. "Bella, im attached".
Pearls of tears rolled down my cheeks. I hear nothing except fer my heartbeat. Its broken. Beautifully broken by da 1 whom she calls her prince.Its confusing because..The whole of hys colleagues knew we were kinda togetha. But no one person ever mention to me of hym being attched. Not even hys mum. Instead, Hys mum kept on asking me abt us and advises me aboud da pieces and bits of a relationship.
His mum spoke to me and lend me a listenin ear. His mum asked if i loved hym and if its fer long or fer short. And i've to admit dyz, If i fall in love, i fall hard. I'll be devoted to da one im attached to. I dun give a damn to looks, wealth nor standard.
Its sincerity dat counts. Da heart matters. Not looks.
Would he ever realize dat i've neva played hym b4. Never did i flirt ard. Im never unfaithful. So not in my dictionary.
Raden Muhammad Anis. Ure da loser. Not me. I dun lose u coz ure not a man of yr werds. U lose me coz i've been here,faithfully waiting fer ya. I cried not fer u. I cried Coz im dumb. Dumb. A fool. Im fooled by you. U gave me air promises and invisible hopes. Fake desires. Plastic dreams. Its all plastic. Ure a good Player, darlinq.
Tonight, Nurul's gonna tear da letter i gave u. Dun blame herr fer duin so. Its of my request. U have a lady in replacement of me. Treat her rite. KARMA happens. Bear dat in mind. I feel lyke an idiot waitin fer u. And yet, Im unappreciated. If its only werds to get awae frm me. Den too bad. U HURT ME.
To my dearest Mum : Thanks fer da advice.
Kak Qiesya : Thanks fer ya SUMMERhugs.
Anis's mum: Fer believin in me n supportin.
Tasha: Fer wiping my tears and huggin me wen i need it.
Nurul ; Fer hvg an effort to call me and Do A HUGE favour fer me.
U ppl meant alot to me. To myself : ure just dumb.
NO MORE HYM. history repeats. Painful truth. Hurtful werds. Fake dreams. Empty promises. Beautifully broken. Unwanted tragedies. Fake smiles. I deserve better.
why must i get hurt everytime i love. stop betrayin me. It hurts.
ANIS I LOVE U STILL.
LOVELOVEbella~
*smooches.
Hush baby ; dun speak.
It hurts.


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i love u more den bunches, Anis.

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