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Does dyz define how disappoint i am now?.. URGH.! How i wish i could post sumthing happy and lively. The thing is. I can't. To u ppl who hate my post, just leave. u dun need to read when u hate it. afterall, its my blog. my words. SORRY. not in da mood.

I really hate it wen u compare me to herr. Ayte,i wun mention names nor point a fingerr. But its just sucks to actually have me compared. I can onli be myself and ppl can never be me. EACH AND EVERYONE in diz werl have their own personalities and dey r unique in each and every waes. SO PLS. STOP...

Mama, everything u said is true. Yerps, ders alot of QUESTIONS in dis head. But den, wad pressure me most is.. I Can't simply have e answers. It sux, mama. sorrie if i've been rude and rebellious. I promise to u and to everybody including ANIS. i wun be as b4. I won hang wid all dose minahs and all. Trust me. It will never happen. And if it does. PUNISH ME for all u care.

Its been long since i last met em. and dey r searching fer me. But heck kare. Mama, im just 2 stressed up wid everything. TOO STRONG FOR TOO LONG. hurts badly. I knoe dys is just mazes of life. But its like. i've been bitten by a snake and i just can't suck da poison out. Oh God. ALL I NEED IS SOME ANSWERS.

Im a gerl of my words. I mean wad i sae. And trust me wen i speak. Its hard. The burdens is just too heavy for me. I jyst can't take e load. I feel lyke crying my heart oud now.. Buh everytime, im wid u or anione else. I potray a fake smile. Im a hypocrite to do so. Oh God, forgive me pls.

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my tears define everything ;

DON'T SPEAK~ silent pls. it will hurt me more..

LOVELOVEbella~

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