Melt me with ure kisses.

I spent my saturday , lazing at home the whole day . Lucky me, Max & Eve came over to get me accompanied. Mama went out. Baby gave me false hope today ! He was supposed to get me breakfast & Lunch, but he was asleep . And now, as im blogging, he is still in his dream land . -.-' By the time he gets up, i'll be in my solitude, enjoying my beauty sleep. I am still not in the pink of health and yea, i wun be going over to Malaysia this weekend since im feeling lethargic & unwell. Akai, he is busy with work. PERIOD. Read atika's blog, and yea atika, your dream was indeed interesting. Haha ! In her dreams, I meninggal during ngaji . -.-' Hilarious, tho'. Afterwhich, i spent hours viewing and acceptin requests from tagged . Oh yes, dear mates, i've deferred my course, and will resume school in a few months time, I have my reasons, and i believe you would understand if you're a regular reader of my blogg . I do miss all of your nonsense . Here, I end my...

Wasnt in the pink of health and there's no single food at home . Mama went out and im too sick to get out from my solitude . Holla baby up and get him to buy me food. Lucky, he was around . Met eve and max earlier on , have a few convos, then head off to the coffeeshop, somewhere not far away from home . I forgot to consume my pills and i am feeling dizzy, just like a bee being sprayed or splat upon . Didn't stay out late like the way i used to few days ago . Headed home, called eve and now, im back to my solitude. As im blogging, I could actually feel a gush of emotions with an additional pain surrounding my face and a heavy head. Feels like a sack of rice being put up upon my head . -.-' To add on , my legs are numb , that i could hardly feel them . Gosh, I really hate this feeling , but i should just smile and have patience. Perhaps, i'll get better soon . Goodnight

Im seriously sick and tired of people RUNNING AWAY FROM ME WHEN THEY CAN'T PAY UP! Names not to be mentioned, but i am sure, these people are common people who reads up all my daily updates . Am I not kind and generous enough to understand your situation and give u a helping hand? Right, its been years, and i really hate it when people promised me to pay up on a certain date, and then, run in the midst of nowhere. I have no idea, what you've been up to? Perhaps, its you and your lies? Whenever i call this person up, this person will not answer and in less than a minute, off the bloody phone? Cant you just answer my call and at least explain to me the reason why, im kind enough to understand. Urgh, people keeps on making use of me, everytime . Nevertheless, crack up a certain act or cry to get my sympathy. Those who know me tends to know, how soft hearted i tend to B. I hardly put myself first. The fact that im raged is not because of the amount of money loaned, But the attitud...

Baaahh ! Its 10 in the morning . Went to get some medications and hell, i can't go baq to sleep. Like, wtf -.-' & I've went missing for now. sorry dear friends, ive been busy. Ohyea, daddy couldn't get a flight back here in Singapore, Oh daddy daddy please? I miss my dad soooo much ! And i realised, i am missing my mum, too. We are staying under one roof, but we havent been seeing each other much. So here is a random post . Im afraid, one day, i might wake up, realising that the one who haf always been with me, doesnt love me. Im afraid, i might lose that love . I am blogging in such a manner because i came across sucha situation. A friend of mine confessed to his girlfriend that he doesn't love her after years being with her and now, he is trying his best to love her. Omg , guys, dun ever ditch your gf okay? I am glad, my mr akai sayang me alot ! kan b?

Went out with bestie, rabia, yesterday . Gawsh , I miss that bytch of mine . Its been awhile since we last met . Afterwhich, accompanied bby to BBDC . Finally, he gonna get hys license after it has been revoke . Met bby for abt an hour early this evening . I couldn't stay much longer since im seriously weak . I havent been well . and i guess, hormonal imbalance struck me again . Gosh, i hope the results turn out positive .

Thanks to my beloved cousin, aysha, i have to complete the nonsense. lol! and here is the sungguh taq perlu survey, happy shaaa? lol. lurf you still, no worries! 1: Besides your lips, where is your favorite spot to get kissed? ♥ My forehead, and cheeks especially. =) 2: How do you feel when you woke up this morning? ♥ Sluggish & weak, (ive got flu and asthma =.=) 3: Who was the last person you took a photo with? ♥ who else, if its not my akai? lol 4: Would you consider yourself to be spoiled? ♥ assuming from my blog link, yes! DUH, what do you expect from the youngest daughter? lol 5: Would you ever donate blood? ♥ erm . i shall consider, if it happens. yes, i guess. 6: Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex? ♥ Obviously yes . 7: Do you want someone dead? ♥ YES ! 8: What does your last text message say? ♥ besok aqu taq free larh kay? baleq malaysia. 9: What are you thinking of right now? ♥ what's gonna happen next . 10: Do you wish someone wa...

ALERT ; Pictures below are the ones i am willing to upload. too many photos okay? lol. and sorry for the bad image quality and the masainess of the bellakai. love it. hate it. keep it at your own discreet. its my life, my choice. and its up to me to choose the way i roll. Take care!

Stucked at home the whole day. It was raining cats and dogs here in woodlands. I was down with asthma early this morning. Sorry e'qa, I couldnt make it =.= And to my dearest akai, im sorry, i lied. Takut bby marah lar. But its okay, from now on, i dare vow, BERANI BUAT BERANI TANGGUNG. Sumpah taq tipu akai lagyy. Pinky promise. Am currently chatting with diy baby after sometime of talking. eh? lol. My bby boy is at home, sleeeping. im still waiting for hym to get up . and yes, i'll be going to Malaysia again, tomorrow. Watched 'RACE TO WITCH MOUNTAIN' last 3 days. Overall rating was ; 4/5. I swear, both me and akai regret watching 'watchmen' . Mundane. Catching some online movie while waiting for my mr akai to call. and yes, my hp mcm cb!

Picture taken last night. Okay, again, im missing my long hair. Unfortunately, MR AKAI, won't allow me to have my extensions on. Reason being ; he rather have me natural. That reminds me of the quote i once had "LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM". But bby, do u love me? =) I've been in a "lazy to update" mood. so, i shall update photos soon. TC

Its 6 30 am and I just got baq to my crib. Well, happy enough to have spent tyme with my baby . In the meanwhile, im feeling all down and confused. I have nothing much to elaborate here, since its personal. All I need is some answers. Time after time, ive been confused by my own conscience and intuitions and now, i've finally learnt the truth. Its true enough, the truth hurts. I'd rather have the truth than living my life with doubts. Now that it breaks me apart, i need space . I've yet to move on with my life and pretend its not hurting me . How the world seems cruel and harsh on me. I need guidance from you, allah . and im quitting my job .

I am finally back in singapore after spending over the weekends back in Malaysia. And I will be quitting my job pretty soon . Okay, i know my blog have been effin empty and dull. Only for the tyme being , I promise. And, pictures will be uploaded by tis week . My tagboard will be up sooon, since some ppl still tend to be CHILDISH. Hahahs. So, this is my life, just enjoy watching it while I enjoy living it. Sayonara BITCHES.

I've been reflecting on a lot of things today. Perhaps, mostly on my attitude. I do agree, the fact that, when i fall in love, i fall hard, does play a big role in my lyfe. I am happy to have found my other half. Sometimes, i do wonder, why I tend to get over-emotional whenever he tends to crack a joke with me . Well, the term , other girls, makes me feel small whenever im around any other gorgeous ladies. Im inferior to this kinda things. and sometimes, i feel challenged. as if, im not a good gf, ever. Okay, he has been nyce, really really nyce. as what ive always told my friends. He is my bestfren, my enemy, my sugar, my honey, my poison, my vampire, my savior. In short, he is my MR EVERYTHING. With hym, there is nothing i can deny. And with hym , i feel secured. Though at times, i may be a bitch, but i wun go the extend of contacting any other guys. Takkan pernah. Coz to me, one is enough. Im not willing to risk it. Memang uh, kawan je per. But again, if u are too engrossed in L...

Again, its raining cats and dogs. Eve and Max came crashing to my place. Baby Akai, sent me to school today .(okay, we took the same train, he alights at CCK) And im supposed, he is all cranky. Reason being ; LACK OF SLEEP. School was a-okay, On average, was only 20% fun since I was feeling all sleepy and sluggish. Now, im all dizzy, and i feel like vomitting . grr~! Akai's grandma haven't been in the pink of health lately. Im praying for the best. Get well soon, nenek! Things at home is pretty rough for me. Would'nt wanna elaborate much. personal. Guess, i gotta get going . Happy weekdays, ppl! Akai, bella cinta bgt sama kamu, cowok gwe yang ganteng.

abg kau! ; Ey bang, taqya kepo. bnyk qau peh gd boy bey asal kepo2 taq aleq rmh =.=/ . weak uh bro. hah dolly ; haha. yes darla, fair enough . hahs. thanks. yea, i love the song, babe! miss ya! SEE YA tmr. rabia ; wey, niari qan qau dtg uma aqu! duh! aqu tawu, kamu kangen sama aqu qan?? haha Farhana ; yes darla!! SUNGGUH AQU FAHAM! hehes. si minah mcm paham tu qan??? lol anw, will do soon love! mane qau ilang?? Rain rain, go away, come again another day. pretty pretty please!! Its raining cats and dogs and the temperature adds on to this pipe bocor of mine, which is my bad bad flu! Plans to Malaysia was cancelled. So, it should be later this week i assume, baby? Im simply in love with akai, over and over again. Went aljuneid to have some durians. Its been ages since i last had durian. Yummylicious, especially on a rainy night. And and, trust me , its been a week since akai and i have been craving for rojak! and its already 3 days now since we had rojak for either lunch/dinner. A...