Melt me with ure kisses.

Okay , i suddenly miss my long black hair.

This picture was taken back in 2007, that was lyke 2 years ago, can?

So, should i bring sexxy black, again?

Okay, today was a roughtough plus yippeehippiehappy day for me!

Have a lil convo with missie lawyer.

Apparently, only a few special ppl have been told about the case.

Met dearest daddy since he's back in Singapore already.

Okay, daddy, better show yourself up since someone confirmed your name to be indian.

I agree on the Biswas though. but what about the Antonio Agresias?

Haha.

Afterwhich, met dearest akai, went to Bugis and town to catch some ideas for valentine's.

Oh and some preparations for the month of February qan sayanggg? hehe.

See larh, you have the ability to make me smile, laugh, cry and angry all at once.

ahha.

Baby was listening to "Baby, don't go".

And he keeps on phrasing the same thing to me.

"IM BETTER THAN YOUR EX, BETTER THAN YOUR NEXT".

He then adds on, "I love this song, bella. macam kener gytu. and i'll always be your next ok?".

Haha.

And i emphasized this part from the verse to him,

" We break up to make up".

Hahaha.

Macam paham larh kiter.

Okay, he was like bella bilang daddy 'I LOVE YOU'.

and i was smiling when daddy complied,

' I LOVE MY SON IN LAW TOO.'

Macam taq sangker2 okay.

Okay, for now, im still thinking what trust is all about.

Be it friends or in a relationship.

In the meantime, im having trust issues.

I dun understand why people keep on talking, knowing, i treasure all my friends.

But again, do they even realize i cared?

Like, hey.. I have nothing against my circle of friends i swear.

Im known to be a straight forward person.

My upbringing have taught me how to forgive and learn from my mistakes.

Again and again, i potray a smile so sweet yet facade.

I may seem happy and jovial, but inside, only god knoes how sensitive i tend to be.

Yes, ive grown a lot after a bad past.

But now, ppl still think im as cruel huh?

The whole of my life, ive been putting others ahead me.

And now, should i still stay the same? If yes, then who would consider my feelings?

God, all I need is some serious guidance and answers.

Akai, mama, mama akai, daddy, eve, max, dolly and e'qa, thanks a lot for hearing my pleas.

Im not out for some sympathetic shit.

Perhaps now, silence is the best answer, right?

Am i a bitch because i speak my mind?

Am i a bitch because I wun let anyone push me around?

Well, if being true to myself, makes me a bitch,

then, i'll accept it rather than me faking to be a person im not.

I'd rather be myself and compromise what I believe in.

Have a nice day, everyone.

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