Melt me with ure kisses.

My dearest sheikhmuhammadzakaria aka akai.

Im so sorry.

Okay, thanks to me and my foul mouth.

I headed for school last afternoon and akai was asleep since he was all drunk.

Afterwhich, met baby at Ang Mo Kio and had lunch at banquet.

He had fried cockles kway teow and I had black carrot cake.

I wasnt in the best mood since last night.

Thanks to my PMS!

I tend to get over emotional and hence leave ppl questioning why and ponder upon my actions.

Mama wasnt home and I left the key at home.

Ive told akai that I wanted hym to accompany me till mama got home.

Little did I know, he told me to go back home leaving me all alone knowing Im down with a high fever.

I raged and left hym.

He called.

Akai ; bella, asal??

Bella ; taq pape uh. akai naq gy dgn kwn akai pe. pegy uh.

Akai ; bella patne? dgn siape?

Bella ; dpan wdl north uh. taqya uh.

Akai ; bella tgu situ, jap lagy akai patah aleq.

Bella ; taqyar uh. akai tanaq bella pe!

Akai ; ey pompan, qalao aqu tanaq qau, aqu taqqan hari2 dgn qau la!

What he said made me realize I was being irrational.

Im all pieces now.

I should have treasured hym.

Thinking of those days he accompanied me till 5 in the morning because I missed the last train to woodlands.

The money we shared when I was broke.

The sacrifice he made just to cheer me up.

I simply love akai a lot.

Lets hope tomorrow things will get better.

I can't talk to him right now since his battery is running low.

Ive lost him once, I can never lose hym again. YES, NEVER AGAIN.

Especially now, when things are better.

Sayang, trust me, this pms will be over soon!

I love you.

Im being too selfish.

And yes, its my turn to understand you this time round.

Please forgive me.

Remember what you told me last nite when u were drunk?

Akai ; Bella, akai kecewe dgan bella

Bella ; asal?

Akai ; pasal bella taq layan akai seperti dulu.

Akai, i was just upset yesterday.

You know why.

And lets hope for a better tomorrow, k sayang?

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