Melt me with ure kisses.

READERS ignore thys post.. Its just a random post fer me to pour out everything.

Went over to north plaza, and bought a box of cigar. That was my intention..

I ended up bumping into akai and fareez..

I was hoping, wishing and praying that I wouldn't bump into that fucker.

OK, im lying to myself.. He is not a fucker. Just a fugging MORON.

I am not angry. I am not agitated. I am not jealous.

Im SHATTERED!

My heart was pounding real fast and i just acted as if im alryte.

I just held hys hand (salam), and walked away.

Rabia told me, he turned to look.

but fcuk! what do i care.

He told me, he's going baq to camp.

But, so what.?..

Took the bus from the opposite bus stop.

There he was, looking at my direction, SMILING.

I looked away. Pretended as if, he's just a normal acquaintance.

Haiz. deep in me, it hurts! as i say, im not ready to talk to hym. WORST, TO EVEN LOOK AT HYS FUGGING FACE! i cant ok!!!

i just cant.. It hurts me. alot.

Just leave me alone fer now. perhaps, till the day we get engaged.

PS : IM NOT MISSING YOU, for now.

LOVE.

BELLA.<3

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