Melt me with ure kisses.

Been a busy week fer me. Ive got myself stucked with sum family thingy and revisions. Im SERIOUSLY under lots of pressure.

Smoking isnt the way out, i Knoe mama.

I apologize fer being rude thys whole week and im sorry if ive been neglecting all your pleas.

Mum, im just dazed. Im ready fer the ENGAGEMENT, yes i am.

Im just afraid of the outcome. Being attached_ and i meant ATTACHED, is a hell different thing frm a normal BGR. there is a lot of responsibilities that i must carry.

Mama, ive faced and seen lots of dramas. From a broken family, wrong circle of friends, riding, abuse, night life, drinking and all those shits.

Those past reminds me of scars, pain, fear and trauma.

Mum, im afraid.. Afraid if thys doesnt werk out.

Im afraid i wun have a responsible husband.

My friends told me that its too early to get engaged. But mum, U knoe best.

Of all, i trust u the most. and mum, give me tyme. im having a spin in my head. SERIOUS.

Akai my love, i love you soo so much. U asked me why i didnt call, im giving u tyme.

U have friends who cared ryte? u have a janda fren as well ryte?

Go on, have ya fun. Let me face thys on my own with my family and yours.

Im simply being understanding. It may cut me till i really bleed, but its ok, time will cure my wound. Your brother was shocked to see the change in u, Your mum especially.

Baby, i knoe u miss me. and i miss u too.

But the difference between us is simple.

You are having fun while im not.

iMSTUCKED! Stucked with evrything.

Ive been silent fer quite some time now, and it still hurts me to c your face. i cnt even hear your voice fer now. I dun feel like having u with me. GIVE ME TIME.

MY FRIENDS : thanks fer all your support.. and my girlfies in school , imy babes.

ALOT!

BELLA<3

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