Melt me with ure kisses.

I couldn't believe waht i just said last nite.

I confessed to Akai.. I confessed to hymm that i still myss hafiz.

I really hope he understand..

Yes, he does. AFterall, hafiz and me, we are bestfriends.

Here I am, by my computer..

Listening to all the songs we sang together.

In the bus. In the train. At mua place. everywher.

Now. I no longer have my mr duet with me. I do myss hymm ALOT!

It hurts to knoe he doesnt even care.

I told akai, i will slowly forget HafiZ and we both knoe it is something impossible.

How could i forget the man who was with me fer the whole of 3 years?

How could i even say i dun care?

I've moved on in the sense of getting attached to akai.

I'm happy. Happy with my life. But there's something missing.

It just feel so empty.

Hell, what am i talking about? I can forget hym. I can!

I am strong. Stronger than before!

I pray Hafiz will be happy with hys lyfe and move on with another gal.

I hope u found a new bestfriend whose way better den me.

Of all, i want u to knoe that since the 1st day i met u,

I'm alwaes supporting u. I've alwaes placed u 1st as my priority.

I hope he gets a beau who wouldnt dare break hyss heart. cos if she does, I'LL BREAK HER LEGGS.

If i ever have the chance to talk to Hafiz, all i wanna say is a simple

i love you

Ps. its true what they say,

BESTFRIENDS CAN BE TOTAL STRANGERS.

BELLA JAMES

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