Melt me with ure kisses.

\ Im glad everything is over. I headed to Sembawang park alone, last night. I really need to think through the possibilities. Little did I know, akai called me. Akai ; bella, qatner? Bella ; sembawang park, alone. why? Akai ; asal sorang2? JUMPER AKAI PLEASE? Bella ; jap lagy kay? I made hym wait for about an hour. Baby met me with a long face. I tried asking hym why but to no avail. He then told me he's all stressed up w his friends and some other stuffs. As for that bytch, He explained to me how he didnt expect her to be around cos he wasnt informed. He wanted to bring me along but with doubts. He wanted me to stay home and not get drunk. Walked around with dearest from woodlands to admiralty. In the end, apit came and fetch us. Went fishing. BUT I ENDED UP SLEEPING! Okay, im glad he explained things. Now, before he strts his male PMS, i better go siap. dia udah menanti deh. AS FOR MY TAGGERS, I'LL REPLY ONCE IM HOME. MUCH LOVE.

My baby got himself drunk for 3 nights already. And, dammn! Its fucking hard to keep in track. He only call me when he's sober. And, i havent meet hym eversince. I met hym last nite, only for 5 minutes. no goodbye kiss, no nothing. Afterwhich, baby called. Akai ; Bella, taq tdo? Bella ; naq tdo lar nie. Bye sayang. Akai ; Bye ajerr? Bella ; Bye, Love you . Akai ; Love you too. Bella ; Miss you. Akai ; Miss you EVEN MORE. Bella ; muacks. Akai ; muacks. EVEN MORE? Is he for real? And everytime I call, he'll be saying the same lame thing. 'BATTERY DARH NAQ FLAT'. He didnt even call me today. On the positive side, he might be sleeping. I realized, its not my PMS. I have no idea why I tend to be all emotional. My conscience keeps telling me, something is wrong. My heart tells me to be strong. and apparently, there's this bytch who hangs out with us recently. She constantly ask me if im with akai, whether or not i'll be meeting hym. Like, hello? Kepo ehs? She ev...

I dunoe why. But I simply hate the picture above. lol. I look effin different, can? grr! Okay, Im supposed to be happy. Baby called at 4.45 am, told me he just got back from Cavey's KTV. He apologized cos he got drunk again. Afterwhich, told him, I wanted to sleep for another hour since I got Effective study skills from 8.30am-11.30am today. I ended up sleeping till 8.30am and slept again till 10 am. Lol. Called baby at 12 . He told me I was being too sensitive last night. He also mentioned that he wanted to rage but he understood the whole situation. "Pasal sayangqan bella, every month akai kena sabar taw.. Tapy, qalau naq iqutqan hati, geram seyh! naseb baik, akai banyak sabar taw. cepat2 lar pms over, sayang." Sweet right? Oh yea, i actually took the initiative to take the medicines he bought for me. 1. Cough syrup (10 ml, 3 times a day) 2. Flu pills, its called CHLORPHENIRAMINE (1 tablet, 3 times a day) 3. Paracetamol for my headache (2 tablets, 4 times a...

My dearest sheikhmuhammadzakaria aka akai. Im so sorry. Okay, thanks to me and my foul mouth. I headed for school last afternoon and akai was asleep since he was all drunk. Afterwhich, met baby at Ang Mo Kio and had lunch at banquet. He had fried cockles kway teow and I had black carrot cake. I wasnt in the best mood since last night. Thanks to my PMS! I tend to get over emotional and hence leave ppl questioning why and ponder upon my actions. Mama wasnt home and I left the key at home. Ive told akai that I wanted hym to accompany me till mama got home. Little did I know, he told me to go back home leaving me all alone knowing Im down with a high fever. I raged and left hym. He called. Akai ; bella, asal?? Bella ; taq pape uh. akai naq gy dgn kwn akai pe. pegy uh. Akai ; bella patne? dgn siape? Bella ; dpan wdl north uh. taqya uh. Akai ; bella tgu situ, jap lagy akai patah aleq. Bella ; taqyar uh. akai tanaq bella pe! Akai ; ey pompan, qalao aqu tanaq qau, aqu taqqan hari2 dgn qau la...

yoshinoya. shasha and bella allen and shasha insanity of both BELL AKAI Akai and his so matrep face! Akai and his muker taq perlu! lol enjoying my waffle fries. thanks allen! I LOVE YOU! Akai, kening maintain! lol a sip of my own. darn! i look so BULAT, can? haha Akai's peace! grr! Im supposed to be in school today. I did not attend class due to some reasons and yea, its a valid reason, ok! I was forced to go school by my MR.AKAI. Went over to causeway point and met my long lost darlings, allen feat shasha! Had a fun tyme with them. And yea allen, credits to me rite for 6 qns? haha. Shasha, please do take care of yourself and please, dun lose your money AGAIN! Afterwhich, dearest called and met hym at marsiling since he wanted to buy his ciggs. and thanks for buying me a packet sayang! love you much2! muuuuaaax! hehe. Im darned broke, baby be giving me 5 dlrs tomorrow, i guess? hehe . sedeh siaks! Went over to woodlands and discussed some stuffs with baby since MAMA AN...

The only guy that captures my heart, evrytime. Baby, over umpteen times we argue over the same things. Still, time and time again, people tried to break us apart. Im glad, glad we are still here, holding on, standing strong. I love you more than anyone could ever love you, hunneh. I knoe, im all mushy now. Im just so impressed. U knoe what im facing and what ive been through. You have been there, all the time. Both eve and max made me realize that ive been kinda controlling at tymes. My irrationality, my harsh words and temper did hurt you. I apologize. My days spent with you is like days spending in heaven. During our misunderstanding, we went through hell. Words spoken, hatred and anger which wasnt necessary. I just pray this never ends. You know, i'll fight for what i love. I knoe you're upset with my present career. Baby, its for the time being, at least, you understand. I promise upon myself not to hide things from you. I will pull through. Just stay with me, I'...

Yes, playing around with words can somehow kill a person. But again, whenever there's a third party, things will always turn the other way round. I am neither angry nor agitated with what happened. Im downfounded. My dearest DIYDEE JANE , the old us remains. All I need is tyme. I knoe, its partly my fault. Never did I blame U. Never will I lose this friendship. Yes, you have been with me since the day school started. Yes, I was always there for U. and U were there for me. I knoe, Ive been busy with my life. There is just so much. Again, I am not a storybook. I will never sell my stories cos it brings me shame, not fame. The thought of losing a friend is far beyond my thoughts. Ive just realized one thing in life, not to be too lenient. My leniency leads to nowhere. DIYDEEJANE, I love you much. and i can never step out of this sisterhood. not to worry. I understand. You are caught in between. Im used to people framing me, baby. I just need tyme to heal. Rest assured, evrything will ...

He is banning me from wearing shorts! PFFT .

My masai face after a whole day out since morning. urgh! Im all lethargic now. Last night was fucked up! Had a huge tiff with akai. haha. sorry, i fooled ya! nothing of that sort happened. I was out late since 9pm since there's no school today. Met dearest over at his aunt's crib. I actually intended to take the last train back to woodlands. Unfortunately, luck wasnt on my side. I was a minute late and ive to like call everyone up to see who is kind enough to fetch me home. A certain someone promised to fetch me, but he fucking blew it off. I am pissed, yea. Akai's license have to be revoked. like wtf ryte? lol. and.. I ended up calling akai to accompany me until that someone fetch me. Baby was mad cos that person blew me off. It was okay, i guessed. partly my fault. Thanks to me, yes me, he have to take medical leave from the clinic. As usual, if its bella kai , there will be much nonsense. and i min it. muchmuch nonsense. went over shop and save to grab some food and drin...

I am sooper bored ! Ok, Im supposed to meet dearest early ! Im lazy enough to get my my faaat ass up the bed. lmao. Okeh, now im up and ready, he's still asleeeeeeeeeeep. pffft. Thanks to my 12345678910112131415161718192021222324252627282930 of wake up calls. He is finally up and HOPEFULLY he is already in the shower. Baby. cepeten dong! waduh. udah bosan bgt nih. mawu aja akw simbahin kamu sama air! Daddy gave me a call two nights ago. wanting me to meet mama's cousins back in Indonesia. Im excited but lazy at the same time. Told daddy, grandma wants me to visit aunt ryta back in Melbourne. Now, i seriously feel im like a bouncing ball! duhs ! I dun care. Im staying here peacefully. Unless I merajok den i follow U ok daddy. Great, akai and I have plans to attend naima's birthday this week. This precious' birthday falls on 16th of january, if im not mistaken, kn eqa? she was borned on the day i have my bloody geography test 2 years back. I rushed to KK and took mc f...

Seriously, age is just a number. Im legally 18 and im turning 19 real soon. I knoe im proud. Not implying that Im some kinda matured chic but I realise some people tend to act all 'babyish' despite being older. Tell me people, do I look like one kinda fucked up shyt? If you are wondering why I am asking, let me share with you my part of story. Recently, theres this ANONYMOUS in my life. Hell no, she was never, never my close friend. I would generally say, she is just an acquaintance. How bad my luck is. This lady here told her mum I owe her fucking cash! And hello, Ive never borrowed U a single cent, asshole. Such a bad image I potray to her family. Pity myself. She even loaned her mum that certain amount of cash claiming she have to pay for some shyts on my behalf. Now, I am confident that most her friends would call me a low dignity hypocrite bytch. Im glad my baby bytches noes my inside out. and for me to borrow cash is a no no ! Unless my dad has no internet connection to t...

I swear this picture was taken like a year ago? Haha. back in september. I knoe, lain qan? Its early January and apit is no longer with us. Oh, tats apit. Akai's elder brother. Muka lain eh? haha. We used to qacau apit, black! Seriously. Apit is now serving his sentence. and i should thank hym for the support. He have always been the best brother in law. Glad, he will be bailed tomorrow morning. Akai will be fetching him and i shall meet them later in the afternoon when im awake cos seriously, im fucking sleepy. get it?? I'll update on hym soon.

TAG REPLIES : Erin ; will link you up soon babe. ;) Bella ; Linked. Not a prob hunneh ! take a good cre of yourself and tompel ! nis! ; baik link aku nan ajib takde. ): Bella ; hey no worries baby, sorry la. will do soooon ! Aysha ; Hey pretty! Happy new year!! :) Bella ; Hey sexy cousin of mine ! Happy 2009 to u too! much misses! Fyeeqa : Bella..bella..bella..hahaks. Bella ; fyeeqa fyeeqa fyeeqa! pagel hye tom? hahaaha todoshi : wwah! 10/10 seh!!!!!!!! wish me luck for mine!!!!!!! Bella ; all the best sweetheart! thanks! Fnira : Im soo happy for u my sayang..You look so suka ria eh skrg?LOL!!Stay happy always with ur beloved MR akai ok dear..:) Bella ; thanks my darlinq. yeah, i hope evrything will shine beb! stay happy gf! happy new year. Rabia : Its gd to see u hapi gf.tc...imy! Bella : thanks dearest. thanks for being my backbone, i luv you much babe! imyt.

Hello 2009. Goodbye 2008. Im now on the phone,with Akai. He is a bad bad boy for today! Not wanting to sleep but listen to my voice when he have work tomorrow! He havta be up at 5. grr! degil sangatsangat. I am really looking forward to a better prospect this year. Trying my very best to be akai's goodgirl. and to be much more responsible and positive. Both, akai and I will be saving up. yes, save, save, save and save! He will be my financial controller. Or else, i'll overspent. Somehow, 2008 have been a roughtough year for me. Lots of obstacles, lots of tears and challenges. ALL IN ONE YEAR. Its like dominoes, falling one after another. Like a star, people keep on talking and spreading unwanted rumours. sungguh taq perlu k? but unfortunately, mulot drg taq penat bitching. lol. Aniwae, sad to knoe, my life is your entertainment, babies. Haha. Lots of bitches have been challenging me and waiting to see me fall. For now, i wouldnt wanna think about it. cos those challenges m...

Pictures taken before countdown. suntec and penin. fireworks was beautiful! MORE PICTURES to come. HAPPY 2009 sweethearts! all the best.

Firstly, HAPPY 2009 people! Finally, 2008 is over and im wishing for the best. Akai's plan to head st James with me was cancelled due to some reasons. 1. His guy friends wun be bringing their girlfies along 2. Off for some drinking 3. Ive got my plans with girlfies So, the both of us decided to split in different directions. Akai was out with his brother, apit and friends. I was upset for a minute, but then hey, thanks to my girlfies! and thanks to u my dearest sheikhmuhammadzakaria for cheering me up in the end. Supposed to meet in town, but, town was extremely crowded and i told akai it was ok if he couldnt make it cos i understand the traffic! lol. At least i spent the whole morning with dearest. qan sayang? Headed for breakfast at mcdonalds in toa payoh and im pretty worried for this special one. Haha. There was a mirror right next to us in mcdonalds. Akai was talking to the mirror ; Akai : Ey, muker awaq same la dgn sayer.. Akai pretending to be the other akai (aka...

Just got back from meeting akai. Yea, the pictures taken from hys mobile phone. Mine aint working cos of the stupid format thingy. CANCELLED PLAN to watch movie today. It will be either tmr or the day after tmr. Yea, baby will be fetching me from school tomorrow and going for lunch. Love hym alot. Baby, I love you so much. Those who hates us, back off. Currently on the phone with hym and im off to sleep. Wish me luck for tomorrows presentation! im nervous. Its my oral presentation, individual ok. Love, Bye.

I'm back! Back from Malaysia. Hey, dun get me wrong, im not a malaysian ok, so mind you. lol. My mum in law just bought a house back in gelang patah. its nice, i swear. Headed to gelang patah last friday right after i accompanied akai collect hys passport in Jurong. Afterwhich, the both of us ended up talking till 5 am. we are supposed to be awake by 6 am but dear and i had a long heart to heart conversation. Swear, i was all tears. Didnt expect baby to be so sweet. He was never this sweet before. B, stay the way you are ok? Mummy likeee! =) We went to Muar, and i wore selendang! I HAVE TO OK ? cos i went over to yaya's madrasah to visit her. Akai was asking me to wear tudung more often , hmpf! hahs. Oh yea, im not ready yet. We had a long journey, went shopping and yea, DINNER. The food was awesome, i tell you! Akai is getting his bike licence, again. and yea, baby, nak kene ader namer bella ok! ngerti lho? Went back to singapore and slept over akai's crib. Just got home l...

Mom in law (akai's mum) , called me early last morning.. She wanted me to come over and accompany both her and iqah. I knew she felt alone since yaya went back to Madrasah. I was not on tyme and reached her place at about 10.15pm. Sorry mama, bella pegy tgoq eve sakit. Had a long convo with her till 4 in the morning. afterwhich, papa went off to work and me, asleeep. Sweet iqah wasnt in the pink of health. I helped do the housechores and sponged iqah. Alhamdulillah, her temperature reduced. Akai's mum's friend came over for a chat. I really appreciate akai's family. alot. I can only pray hard to Allah, that he will repay their kindness. no words could explain. Im happy as it is. and i hope, history was meant for the past and it shall not repeat. I gotta run. im still doing my research. Updates sooon. and yea, cant wait till wednesday. 2 more days to go bebey!