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As for today, im happy , i got to be with bby the whole day. Gosh , i really miss th tymes i had w hym . Tho' sometimes, i got hurt by th little things he said, he will never fail to make me smile with hys silly acts. Today, we challenged to a game, called, bejewelled blitz in facebook. Afterwhich, mama wanted me to go courts and pay those bills . Akai accompanied me, met Farhan for awhile, and after some time, he went off to hys uncle place. Went jalan2 w baby at causeway point, bought perfumes and go makan at triple 8 with Max, eve and my sweetlove . Had meatloaf spaghetti while akai had Chicken chop. We then headed to NTUC to get some barang barang important kitchen. Got some snacks, toothpaste, milk, cereal, and bought mee goreng 'mamak' for mama. I thought of getting mama, nasi ayam penyet. Sadly, th service was 0. YES, ZERO. Imagine a long queue, three stallholders, and all three of them busy talking and focusing on one customer's order, the satay. I waited for al...

Things have been really tuff for me that I almost burst my head off . However, Ive been releasing my stress mostly by sitting and chilling alone. Nowadays, with none of my friends. Since most arent those late birds. Even if they are, they are th ones staying far away from Woodlands. Bella, alone ? It might sound weird to most but its th fact. 99.9% of my friends are mostly busy with their lives. My mum is busy for her wedding preparation. Daddy, as usual, busy with hys career . My brothers, have been busy ever since they each have a beau. My Akai, he is so busy with hys friends and as i say, i hardly lepak with hym nowadaes. So, yesterday, i met rabia at 7, she somehow, made me laugh, and i love you so much for that . Afterwhich, akai came by, accompanied by pendek and ipan came over, sometyme later . Lepak-ed with me for awhile, akai then go jalan2 w hyss frens, without allowing me to follow cos he told me he's gonna be out for a while . but deep down my heart, i knoe, he's ...

The one that im most devoted to . The one I shared everything with . The one that makes me cry and laugh at the same tyme. Everything about us is just so perfect. Except for the fact that th both of us have our own temper. And th both of us seem to be totally opposite . At tymes, when i've had my ego, akai would say " macam ye ye ". By right, ive got my reasons . Nowadays, just nowadays, we barely lepak outside, we hardly go jalan2, we hardly have fun tymes outside. I miss th tymes i hang out w hym. Miss th tymes, he criticized my pool skills. Miss th tymes, we had our fun playing games in th arcade. Miss th tymes we go out to hunt for rojak. Miss th tymes we went out for a movie. Miss th tymes i watch hym play soccer. Miss th tymes i see hym fall asleep on my shoulders. Miss th tymes we spent outside. Nowadaes, i can't follow hym whenever he is w hys frens. At tymes when im down and all alone, all i need is hym. and at tymes when i get mad, all i want is a hug. At ...

Above is Nana. Its been awhile since I last met her. Met her last afternoon and went jobhunting. Afterwhich, visit Qisya at her werkplace back in novena. BITCHED . SMOKED. EAT. LAUGHED. Went to admiralty and wait for Nana's TTM to fetch and bring us To Yishun Dam. I really miss those times i have w mama and abang eddie. Especially those times when he still have his bike. Unfortunately things happened and now, he is without a bike. Talk some sense to Nana. She wasnt in her right sense of rationality . Urgh, sometimes, boys suck ! Agree? After some chatting, we realized its already 9.40pm and i need to get back home since Akai is already waiting for me at my void deck. Being th gundu gf, i rushed home. Unfortunately, ive to wait for belardy 16 mins till akai reach ! -.-' He's lucky i was in my best mood. Earlier this afternoon, ive actually got plans to go bugis with nuruljade and nanastar. However, plans was cancelled due to some reasons. As for nana, her bf's mum bestfr...

Pictures was taken last year before I even went to genting w akai's family . Im seriously feeling mundane . Have no plans in mind. Im just tired of being home. grr -.-'. Chat w the only nuruljade, I really hope she'll be alrite. Gosh, im really worried now. Hope nuthing happens. Nurul, you are strong kay B! Qau boley make it nye. dun wery, aqu support! =) Baby went out to B.gombak, told me he's gonna be out for a while. I have no idea, whom with . I'll assume with his campmate. I miss my nightlife and i miss my babybitches! Met some of my minah minahs at 500 plus ytd. I super miss farah. Pictures shall be uploaded as soon as farah msn me those pictures.

Ive been missing my girls alot . Especially those whom have been with me thru out . Wasnt in th pink of health, thanks to th coldsejukhotpanas weather. PFFT -.-' Was in my most crankiest mood ever last night. Nothing just feels right. I even had a short-term argument with bbyboy. Im lucky it ended with a hug. Again, he managed to make me smile and put me to sleep. ILY sugarpie. Ive no plans for today and im feeling all mundane. Ive been a good girl lately since ive been staying at home for the past week. On another hand, ive been missing school a lot. I miss th chaotic fun in school. I miss gossiping. I miss making fun of my lecturers. Grrr . Im starting school in a few months time, i just cant wait. Pardon me for using simple english this tyme round. Im tired and im not in my best mood. Still cranky, that is. .

Met my bestfriend to settle some scores. Im confused, myself. Im caught between my future family and my bestfriend. I really feel like putting this matter at peace. I have had enough cracking my brains and thinking of all th possibilities. Lately, ive been stuck at home spending most of my time w my akai. Today, be going out and get some stuffs. Okay, im gonna end my post here and continue playing poker, ive got a fullhouse!!! lol

Super mundane can? I swear its a fucking hot day. and i cant tahan th oh sungguh panas weather. makes me nanak makan but wanna drink ice ice water. Urgh. Sungguh tiring okay? And akai still have the heart to play soccer. Stubborn baby stubborn ! LETHARGIC= never in hys dictionary. and yeay, im getting more girlfies. and zura, pls girls out soon okie? Ive been neglecting my friends after what happened. And its seem hard to trust nowadays. Akai, thanks bby, thanks for being w me thru out. you're th sweetest thing ever. ILYSM. Get that in your thick skull puhlease. And dolls, my hp is super rosak. I cant even turn it on, so u know where to find me, hunneh. Mama, daddy or akai, either one of you, get me a phone w gd camera quality please??? Lol. Went out to grab lunch earlier on, afterwhich, went lepak-lepaking w my baby and hys boys. and now, im super tired. Rabia cant make it. Eve cant make it. eeeee ! korg nieee. Bile nyonya nie free, mak senek mak senek aku pulak taq free. ape mcm?...

Pardon my masai face and my ubber short shorts. I was at home, so, what d'you ppl expect? Anyways, my dreams have been telling me things, i guessed. Last few nights, i dreamt of me walking in th middle of th cemetery. Afterwhich, i headed to somewhere near th entrance and realized that at every angle there is at least a 'pontianak' standing, doing nothing. It scares me off my veins. and i couldnt sleep after that. I've been asking myself why I kept on dreaming something weird and scary. So, i drank my hot milo and headed back to sleep. I really forced myself to sleep since i didnt wanna wake akai up and disturb hys charming sleep. Right after, i dreamt of weird creature. Its tall, its black and i couldnt see the face. Th creature is trying to make me suffer and kill me. Again, i woke up, this time, in cold sweats. I got so scared, i switched the lights on and chant some surah2 that i know of. I woke up, told mama about it. Mama just gave me a hug. Akai, he says , its no...

Trust issues sucks right? I mean, most ladies would definitely agree on that. People might see me as an open-minded, heck care kinda babe, Unfortunately, i have a lot of insecurities. And I need to execute that feeling away from me . It would definitely lead to an unhealthy conflict . I am very happy to be blessed with a 3 year relationship. and i thank allah for giving me th guidance through out. See, all i ever need is just a piece of honesty and faithfulness from my other half. And im blessed to have one. But recently, i realized i cant restrict or command someone to do something they would repeat. I agree, once, twice, thrice, you will always do a lil give and take. However, when th limit has been breached, then, thats it. I will never end this relationship. If i have the power to control things, i would want things to sail smooth. Nevertheless, control my emotions. Th problem is me and its an irritating fact. I do trust him. But i have precautions too. Now, im so gonna shut my eye...

PICTURES TAKEN ON THE 28TH OF APRIL oh, sorry for the bad image quality. It was taken from Akai's front camera. I promise a better picture soon ! ENJOY. Hate it, might as well, leave. and and pardon our masai and tired faces ! -.-'

Met bby earlier on .. Okay, its 6 am now , and it was yesterday when i met bby. Baby bought a new phone, LG viewty. and he seriously need to buy me one on hys next pay? kay kay kay kay?? hehehe. My phone is spoilt but its okay, i gave in since bby's phone is a total jahanam. Kene campak. Why? Its between you and me kan? jatuh longkang laaaa. hehehe.. Made baby promise not to keep in contact and flirt with chiqas. I hate it everytime he does dat. INSECURITIES. Afterwhich, met Eve and Max somewhere not far away from my crib. Akai treated us pool and it was a hell lots of fun. Akai bought a new phone but i was th one busy godey godeying his phone! term sungguh the bella language! lol . pictures will be uploaded as soon as bby bluetooth-ed th images to my beloved pink laptop. Now, my dearest is on hys way to work while i cant put myself to lala land. Sungguh stress di rumah okay? And daddy is starting to cut my expenses and make me control my budget cos something BIG is happening in...

A picture says a thousand words. But like th picture above, my life is just way opposite. Ppl just love watching th way i live. And i hate th fact that its their entertainment. Some bitches admit they wanna be like me or get near me . But seriously, you won't be loving the life i am leading . The house doesnt feel a home animore. Its as though, im living life thru hell. I am glad akai have been there. Make me laugh when i cry. Make me believe, nothing is wrong . Now, he is out of my crib .. I am already crying drastically on how much i want hys embrace. Its okay, 3 more hours till i see hym again. For now, th truth have become lies. and the lies became the truth. I'm confused and im just waiting for my name to be cleared. Urgh . fuck...

Pictures above was taken yesterday . Baby had a half day off work , afterwhich, met me at bukit gombak for as early as 9.40 am. We had some family gathering going on . Both our parents and us except for my daddy, that is . It was a remarkable day, and we had an early lunch. I swear it was such a humid day . Irritating, i know . Baby and i have been drinking lots of water nowadays, we have been neglecting fooooooood ! Good kay akai, i can lose weight, if not he will always ajak me go makan and make me eat. blearghs ! Okay, im off now. Be meeting akai's aunt and buying some groceries. Getting akai his cereals, milk, and kunyah2 which will be shared by Miss Bella James. Ahah. See ya people !

Pardon my muke taq perlu . Haha, Met eve earlier on . Afterwhich, met max and my akai . Glad, things have been smooth. Tho' I must learn how to control my bitchy mouth . I was sarcastic. But it was unintentional. Things have been good. Its hard to contaq hym now cos his hp is spoilt . and i hvta wait for his call every now and then. Urgh. Guess now, i gotta get th dice rolling, lets just play th same games . I'll play th "i dunoe anything" kinda bbygirl okay. I'll be more flexible. gaaaah ! Love you much.

VIRGO AKAI AND CANCER BELLA Cancer Woman & Virgo Man This match is very good for you and can definitely lead to lasting love. You have a lot of things in common with the Virgo boy, like your love for order and routine. Security is very important to you and you will find that in this relationship. You also have good chemistry in the romance department. You will draw out the passionate side in each other that you both keep hidden away most of the time. Because your needs are similar, you respect what each other want from a relationship. You will feel fulfilled emotionally in this pairing and fights about either one of you flirting will be few. A good love match. Can you say perfection? When Cancer girl teams up with Virgo boy, friends and family have a magnet for good times and group activities. Backyard BBQ's, movie nights, and Sunday dinners…. you're the belles of the ball. Everyone wants to be near the warmth and good vibes that you have for each other. Personalities mes...

Took an emotional quiz and here it is ; You're holding on to a hurt feeling caused by past relationships and having trouble in trusting again. Its time to learn from your mistakes and move on. Get rid of the self pity that is currently controlling your love life. You might be tempted to date another mismatch, thinking wrongly, that if it can't turn into a relationship, you won't get hurt. You are too fragile now for those games. Baby , you've been extremely busy . and we have been lacking time together. I miss you so much .

Patience is a virtue. Met bby and am glad everything is settled now. Okay, here is another random post based on LIFE. Readers, imagine yourself sacrificing your everything to th one you love. Staying under one roof and have all the good times together. One fine day, you happen to read a message in his inbox saying all those sweet nothings. Afterwhich, u called th other party upon suspicion. U got to knoe th one you love have actually betrayed you . He said th nastiest things abt you when you were th one who have been w hym thru his ups and downs. What would you do? Lucky, it didnt happen to me ...

This song is super meaningful okay? damn it . lol Dimalam sepi ini, teringat kisah cinta ku Bila ku keseorangan Wajahmu menjelma Sewaktu bersamaku, kau tak menghargaiku Kini kau ku tinggalkan, Setelah ku dipermainkan.. Tapi malangnya nasib diriku, Ku taq mampu untuk melupakan mu Kini ku sendiri, menangisi, pemergianmu, kekasih hati.. Ku sering terbayang Kenangan kita bersama Engkau berjanji setia Akhirnya ku yang terluka.. Setahun darh berlalu, Ku tk dpt melupakanmu Tpi tiada ku sangka, Kini kau sudah berpunya.. Tapi ku masih sayang pada dirimu seorang dan aku akan menantimu Hanya engkau yang ku sayang.. Aiyai ! dun get me wrong okay, im still happily taken by my kakai.. I guess, if we were to break up, then , this would be dedicated to hym cos its true, guys tend to move on easily than ladies. And kakai, better not leave me cos I love you fucking much !

In school, Ive learnt that aggression is bad . Acting on impulse, saying things you dun mean to will eventually turn everything th opposite way . As for me, PMS is a bitch and I hate having to deal with PMS every single month . Last night was fucked up. I was petrified someone was stabbed at my void deck. I was upset everyone was picking on me . I was even mad when Baby misunderstood me. Its been almost 3 years now baby, and you should know how deep my fucken love is for you . Its me and my mouth . gaah ! Can someone just murder me ? I should have understood you're feeling all blue and lethargic . I should have just ignored your temper. I should have just let you cool off. I should have talk to you in a nice manner instead of scolding you in th presence of my friends. I am sorry for embarrassing you. I didn't mean to break your heart . I didn't mean to say those things to you . I didn't mean to just shout at you in that manner . Baby, I know you're reading this. Bel...