Things have been really tuff for me that I almost burst my head off .
However, Ive been releasing my stress mostly by sitting and chilling alone.
Nowadays, with none of my friends.
Since most arent those late birds. Even if they are, they are th ones staying far away from Woodlands.

Bella, alone ? It might sound weird to most but its th fact.
99.9% of my friends are mostly busy with their lives.
My mum is busy for her wedding preparation.
Daddy, as usual, busy with hys career .
My brothers, have been busy ever since they each have a beau.
My Akai, he is so busy with hys friends and as i say, i hardly lepak with hym nowadaes.

So, yesterday, i met rabia at 7, she somehow, made me laugh, and i love you so much for that .
Afterwhich, akai came by, accompanied by pendek and ipan came over, sometyme later .
Lepak-ed with me for awhile, akai then go jalan2 w hyss frens, without allowing me to follow cos he told me he's gonna be out for a while .
but deep down my heart, i knoe, he's gonna take a long tyme .


Lucky enough, Max and eve came to th RC, talked, and went off at about 11 3o pm followed by rabia.
Till then, i was alone at th void deck till i fell asleep.
sad kan?
I woke up to a kiss akai gave me on th neck, and i was actually crying .
Perhaps, i was too afraid . I am not confident about myself whenever he talks to me abt his past acquaintances as well as other ladies. I felt low. and yes, it hurts me listening to th conversations he and his friends had last night .


Later at night, forced myself to sleep,
dreamt of th ponti ponti again, 2 tymes, to th extend of akai waking me up.
I hugged hym real tite cos i was really afraid .
Got baq to sleep and I actually dreamt of my late grandfather .
He was asking me if i wanted to followed hym.
As soon as i answered, 'where to?', akai woke me up.
And again, i woke up to a wet pillow, thanks to those tears which drop down my hue.
sedih kan hidup aqu? baaah -.-'


Kay la, man U lost. =(