Melt me with ure kisses.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all of you . It might be a joyous season for most muslims. However, its both sad and happy for me . Im happy since its the first time i celebrate raya as a wyfe. Unfortunately, my dad had a great downfall bck in jakarta. He suffered stroke . I wished i could just fly to jakarta now . Daddy called. "Sweetie, im sorry i didnt transfer you cash . Tho' you're married, i did not forget my duties and responsibilities as a father . I tried calling you but to not avail . I could barely speak my dear. Princess, dun worry . now i want you to be strong and stop crying . i love you so much . i just need rest for now. i wished im there with you . remember, if anything ever happens to me, just know that i love you and you will always be my only princess. I AM ALWAYS IN YOU, AND YOU ARE ALWAYS IN ME." Allah, forgive daddy for any sins he commit. please grant hym good health . im really dwn for nw .

This guy here is a friend of mine in ADMIRALTY PRIMARY SCHOOL. .remembering the times, he called me names, and well, its normal kan? primary school habits. I got this article from a fren's tagged. i was shocked upon receiving th news. He was a nice guy . anws, rest in peace my friend. al-fateha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED HUSBAND, AKAI ! 11/09/2009. B, bini you kanchong kan, naq post early2.. hehehes.. biase ah, semangat birthday!! hehes. Akai dearest, we both know, what we went thru. The rumors, the fights, the merajok2 session, my irritating prangai and your nonsense. haha, we shared too much. Remember those days, when everything started with a simple 'u tgah uat ape ' to the extend of our 'sandcastle' story.. to our never-ending phone conversations. our exchange of mms. everything blossomed to a wonderful relationship, then, our first fight, so on and so forth . We got separated yet we never part . And today, look at us, we are officially husband and wife. We've proved many ppl they are wrg abt us, darla. We made it this far. and despite all the problems we gonna face in future, just remember how we pulled thru. just remember those jokes we made. Isnt it sweet , baby? Ive never forget those first times we had. And i will never forget us. AKAI.. Just...

Korang2. I have deleted my tagged account . I dun want to be the reason for hacking or changing someone's acct .. I am sick and tired of everything. I can be contacted through msn, since i'll be deleting facebook as well. So, have a nice day ppl ! =)

Great , my hair is short again . Its now shoulder length . Akai wants me to forget bout extensions.. Boohoo ! Alrite, watched final destination 3d , the other day, ratings was a-okay . Apparently, i was hospitalised again last sat . Long story for a short, only my family and in laws know why. To my frens who pretended to care, please forget abt me. I gave up . Tired of two faced sluts . And, again, ive been damned busy with home affairs. Im in need of rest . pardon for my short post, i need to take my pills now. tc,

WHY DO MEN TREAT WOMEN A STEREOTYPE? Often , men tend to have a higher level of authority to take charge and be in charge . However, in my personal point of view, guys who fucks randomly are nothing but a piece of junk being dumped and all mud up . Sharing their so called personal exchanges of compliments to friends/girlfriend, hurts . I would totally disagree on guys having to blame women for their naivity in believing words of fable and lies . However, a guy would treasure a lady if he respect her feelings, right ? In this modern era, women are stereotypes. Having sexy figures on posters, making them despise their own beau . Oh i pity those women, SEX SLAVES ! Meanwhile, men cricticize women and freely call her cheap, when they are not much of a difference . They are even cheaper , having to have their cocks sucked and pumped for free ! stupid right ? Guys and lies . Now tell me, whose to be blamed ?

16 th August marks th most remarkable day of my life . The day i stepped to adulthood- MARRIAGE. I'm finally a wife to Mr Sheikh Md Zakaria aka Akai . A mixed emotion fell upon me . Its a feeling of joy, happiness, blue and fear . My greatest fear is actually marriage . Im afraid, i might lose it . But lets be positive . I shall learn from th past and not make history repeat . Everyone was ard, unfortunately, daddy had to attend a very important meeting in Bali. Abg Eddie can't get his leave, abg dino was in malaysia . However, im glad, everything went smoothly . To my friends who attended my wedding, thanks a trillion . and to rabia, thanks for sleepin over to help out . Well, at least, you've got your reports done, kankankan ! hehehe . i suke ! Nevertheless, mama, who plays th main role in decorating th hantarans . clean up and set everything up . Kakak, to actually help out . Daddy, for your greatest support , and for th cash you gave to make my wedding a successful one...

I'm glad akai is in the pink of health, again ! As for me, im the one who is currently down with a high fever, 38.6 degrees. please eh, not H1N1 tau !! lol .. I shall thanks mama and akai for taking a good care of me this whole of 2 days . Akai, tho i might be damn irritating and cranky during my fever period, im glad you're able to stand all my nonsense . Akai fed me porridge, made me drinks, sponged me and even massage me . He even monitor my medications time . Thanks baby . apart from that, mama did sponge me as well . Akai is currently at work , I cant wait for him to be home . Well, i do miss my schoolmates truckloads . Anyway, sorry dolly plan was cancelled, im having a ridiculous high fever . Sorry rina, taq dapat gy open house qau semalam, i demam la you .. hehehe Zura, sorry taq angkt qol qau yer, aqu tdo siang, matlumla, kene sumbat dgn ubat, ape ke tdk, terus gone siol ! hehehes.

Ive been home the whole of today . Mama went to work . Akai, he is at home . He is down with a high fever. Alar, kesian larh qan . Supposed to meet zura and rina yesterday, however, it was a last minute plan and i have to spend th whole day with my family . Went to malaysia . Had an early night . Ive been wondering about my future , th whole entire tyme. Yes, sometimes friends come and go . But i simply loathe it when ppl tend to be all candy sweet in front of you and from th back, they tend to be a rotten piece of junk . Haiyor . Well, its hard to predict me . One thing for sure , i am very sensitive but i can be blunt. My classmates and school mates knows just what i am talkinq about . Guess, i gotta roll now. I havta cook dinner . adios . AKAI, GET WELL SOON . SEE, WE MISSED OUR TRIP TO KOTA TINGGI TOMORROW ! HMPFT .. Love ya

I am seriously looking for a job . Anything related to customer service,office . I am mundane having to stay home and earn nothinq . Well, its been awhile since i last updated my blog . Ive yet to change my blogskin. And I shall update you again on my outings and hang outs. Oh yea, as for now, let pictures do th talking . adios. I cant wait for national day . I'v

Given my leniency, i was taken advantage of. Given my strength, i did not understand the term 'fall'. Given my forgiving nature, I was told nothing but lies . Given my affection , I failed to move on . Above all, I tend to move forward, hang on , and never let go . With all that is happening in my life, I believe it is a test from Allah . And all i ever seek was guidance . Mama used to be there for me . However, I dun wanna trouble mama for all the shits that im going through . With a tough family situation , complicated friendship fights, some money matters , myself and a smooth sailing yet rocky relationship. I am just like a numbskull. It hurts too much for me to act. I am all weak. Eyes dried out . 4 nights, alone . Subtract one of the nights when dolly actually sacrificed her tyme for me. Today, rabia is gonna bring me to a ride on her bike. Yesterday, I broke a glass of water. Mama is having some weird feelings. As though, something was wrong . I am feeling the same thin...

As for today, im happy , i got to be with bby the whole day. Gosh , i really miss th tymes i had w hym . Tho' sometimes, i got hurt by th little things he said, he will never fail to make me smile with hys silly acts. Today, we challenged to a game, called, bejewelled blitz in facebook. Afterwhich, mama wanted me to go courts and pay those bills . Akai accompanied me, met Farhan for awhile, and after some time, he went off to hys uncle place. Went jalan2 w baby at causeway point, bought perfumes and go makan at triple 8 with Max, eve and my sweetlove . Had meatloaf spaghetti while akai had Chicken chop. We then headed to NTUC to get some barang barang important kitchen. Got some snacks, toothpaste, milk, cereal, and bought mee goreng 'mamak' for mama. I thought of getting mama, nasi ayam penyet. Sadly, th service was 0. YES, ZERO. Imagine a long queue, three stallholders, and all three of them busy talking and focusing on one customer's order, the satay. I waited for al...

Things have been really tuff for me that I almost burst my head off . However, Ive been releasing my stress mostly by sitting and chilling alone. Nowadays, with none of my friends. Since most arent those late birds. Even if they are, they are th ones staying far away from Woodlands. Bella, alone ? It might sound weird to most but its th fact. 99.9% of my friends are mostly busy with their lives. My mum is busy for her wedding preparation. Daddy, as usual, busy with hys career . My brothers, have been busy ever since they each have a beau. My Akai, he is so busy with hys friends and as i say, i hardly lepak with hym nowadaes. So, yesterday, i met rabia at 7, she somehow, made me laugh, and i love you so much for that . Afterwhich, akai came by, accompanied by pendek and ipan came over, sometyme later . Lepak-ed with me for awhile, akai then go jalan2 w hyss frens, without allowing me to follow cos he told me he's gonna be out for a while . but deep down my heart, i knoe, he's ...

The one that im most devoted to . The one I shared everything with . The one that makes me cry and laugh at the same tyme. Everything about us is just so perfect. Except for the fact that th both of us have our own temper. And th both of us seem to be totally opposite . At tymes, when i've had my ego, akai would say " macam ye ye ". By right, ive got my reasons . Nowadays, just nowadays, we barely lepak outside, we hardly go jalan2, we hardly have fun tymes outside. I miss th tymes i hang out w hym. Miss th tymes, he criticized my pool skills. Miss th tymes, we had our fun playing games in th arcade. Miss th tymes we go out to hunt for rojak. Miss th tymes we went out for a movie. Miss th tymes i watch hym play soccer. Miss th tymes i see hym fall asleep on my shoulders. Miss th tymes we spent outside. Nowadaes, i can't follow hym whenever he is w hys frens. At tymes when im down and all alone, all i need is hym. and at tymes when i get mad, all i want is a hug. At ...

Above is Nana. Its been awhile since I last met her. Met her last afternoon and went jobhunting. Afterwhich, visit Qisya at her werkplace back in novena. BITCHED . SMOKED. EAT. LAUGHED. Went to admiralty and wait for Nana's TTM to fetch and bring us To Yishun Dam. I really miss those times i have w mama and abang eddie. Especially those times when he still have his bike. Unfortunately things happened and now, he is without a bike. Talk some sense to Nana. She wasnt in her right sense of rationality . Urgh, sometimes, boys suck ! Agree? After some chatting, we realized its already 9.40pm and i need to get back home since Akai is already waiting for me at my void deck. Being th gundu gf, i rushed home. Unfortunately, ive to wait for belardy 16 mins till akai reach ! -.-' He's lucky i was in my best mood. Earlier this afternoon, ive actually got plans to go bugis with nuruljade and nanastar. However, plans was cancelled due to some reasons. As for nana, her bf's mum bestfr...

Pictures was taken last year before I even went to genting w akai's family . Im seriously feeling mundane . Have no plans in mind. Im just tired of being home. grr -.-'. Chat w the only nuruljade, I really hope she'll be alrite. Gosh, im really worried now. Hope nuthing happens. Nurul, you are strong kay B! Qau boley make it nye. dun wery, aqu support! =) Baby went out to B.gombak, told me he's gonna be out for a while. I have no idea, whom with . I'll assume with his campmate. I miss my nightlife and i miss my babybitches! Met some of my minah minahs at 500 plus ytd. I super miss farah. Pictures shall be uploaded as soon as farah msn me those pictures.

Ive been missing my girls alot . Especially those whom have been with me thru out . Wasnt in th pink of health, thanks to th coldsejukhotpanas weather. PFFT -.-' Was in my most crankiest mood ever last night. Nothing just feels right. I even had a short-term argument with bbyboy. Im lucky it ended with a hug. Again, he managed to make me smile and put me to sleep. ILY sugarpie. Ive no plans for today and im feeling all mundane. Ive been a good girl lately since ive been staying at home for the past week. On another hand, ive been missing school a lot. I miss th chaotic fun in school. I miss gossiping. I miss making fun of my lecturers. Grrr . Im starting school in a few months time, i just cant wait. Pardon me for using simple english this tyme round. Im tired and im not in my best mood. Still cranky, that is. .

Met my bestfriend to settle some scores. Im confused, myself. Im caught between my future family and my bestfriend. I really feel like putting this matter at peace. I have had enough cracking my brains and thinking of all th possibilities. Lately, ive been stuck at home spending most of my time w my akai. Today, be going out and get some stuffs. Okay, im gonna end my post here and continue playing poker, ive got a fullhouse!!! lol

Super mundane can? I swear its a fucking hot day. and i cant tahan th oh sungguh panas weather. makes me nanak makan but wanna drink ice ice water. Urgh. Sungguh tiring okay? And akai still have the heart to play soccer. Stubborn baby stubborn ! LETHARGIC= never in hys dictionary. and yeay, im getting more girlfies. and zura, pls girls out soon okie? Ive been neglecting my friends after what happened. And its seem hard to trust nowadays. Akai, thanks bby, thanks for being w me thru out. you're th sweetest thing ever. ILYSM. Get that in your thick skull puhlease. And dolls, my hp is super rosak. I cant even turn it on, so u know where to find me, hunneh. Mama, daddy or akai, either one of you, get me a phone w gd camera quality please??? Lol. Went out to grab lunch earlier on, afterwhich, went lepak-lepaking w my baby and hys boys. and now, im super tired. Rabia cant make it. Eve cant make it. eeeee ! korg nieee. Bile nyonya nie free, mak senek mak senek aku pulak taq free. ape mcm?...