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You never know how STRONG you are until being strong is the only choice U have.
Being away for quite sometime, doesnt mean i dun care. Doesn't mean I've moved on.
Upon hearing what I've heard is enough to keep me broken.
I realize, when a downfall happen to me, it will keep on happening, either the same day or the same week.
Havinq my sister in hospital, crushes me enough.
Now, ive to face another challenge which I think is way too personal for me to elaborate.
See, the fact that I do care, makes me weak.
And my heart is breaking again.
I believe U would be readinq my blog cos that is what u have been doing everytime when im in school.
U know, I really believe its tyme for U to sit down and think of all the shyts U have caused.
Yes, i believe, U still wanna have fun, but tell me w.o denying, how are u feeling now?
Yes, U appear to be happy and havinq fun, but in the baq of your mind? deep in your heart?
I knoe, this is not what U wanted.
Remember the things U told me before?
I still believe in it.
And i have faith in you.
C'mon, you are able to get up and have a brighter future.
You are smart.
You are intelligent.
You are way better than your friends.
I'll be praying for U from a distant.
Bella<3

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