Its 11 21 pm and im sleepy. Especially now, after taking my pills. Gawsh. Im exhausted.

Okeyy okeyy. Im takin thys opportunity to explain to U, abby, why we cant keep in touch.

Firstly, Im attched to my beloved, akai. And tho we may argue all the tyme, i admit, it was partly my fault.

I cant be blaming hymm all the tyme. Its me who chose not to trust hym. and because of those friends, I LOST HYM. Now, he's bacq in my lyfe. And im glad we cleared everthyng. I'm still learning how to control my emotions. and now, whenever, he's rough, i'll treat it lyqe a joke.

And yes, it is a joke. Im just being too emotional.

Well, before hys parents left fer malaysia, I followed hym to court to clear hys probation thingy and to change hys addie.

He's grandma has plans in mynd. (i bet u knoe).

Both our parents agreed.

Akai just smiled and gave me a hugg.

He's mum had a talk with my mum.

Talking about how our relationshyp is and what are the plans like in future?

Akai has to finish up hys NS and me with studies.

Once, evrything settled, we are getting engaged next year, insya'allah..

and oh, gettin married rite after akai's ns tat wud be in 2009.

It is too early. But parents nowades, The thyng is, akai and i has thys special chemistry going on.

I just cant bear losing hym. and he cant too.

No matter what i do, how i fling, i will still remember hymm.

Abby, I knoe U love me. But really, ive never been tis happy before. Im so sorry.

I bet, you deserve better.

I lie if i sae i hate u. Ure a nyce chap.

But, feelings cant be forced.

U ureself saw how intoxicated i get whenever akai is ard.

Just hearing hys voice, cheers me up...

Abby, my apologies.

Im hoping fer the best. coz this is the guy im not willing to leave. Its outta my will.

sorry.....

Love.

Bella<3